Feeling down and discouraged in Daily life

  • April 24, 2021, 11:51 a.m.
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Feeling down and discouraged today. Discouraged in that the condos I have seen in my price range are few and snapped up in a matter of days. My house would probably sell that quick too but I need a place to go to. I will be a cash buyer and I have a nice amount saved but I need my house as collateral also so I applied for a line of credit and it looks good but will probably take between two and four weeks .

Down because I miss Jeff, even when I realize how for the past few years he never stopped having contact with her and yet led me and our counselor to believe that he was working on reconciling. It hurts to think he was that deceitful and of course I think he is having a contented life and a great love affair with her (my therapist wishes he had my crystal ball to see that). He no doubt feels bad that he hurt me but “life takes a funny turn sometimes “ and “it is what it is”.

Also down because I have texted a couple of people a few days ago and they never got back to me. My other friend is gone for the week at the shore and I was a bit disappointed that she didn’t think to invite me (we have talked about going somewhere but I guess not this time).

My son and his family went to Williamsburg, VA and I had asked if I could have come, not even to hang out with them but just to go and he said it was a family vacation.

My daughter just came back from Maine and i knew I couldn’t go with them because her partner’s grandmother is dying but I would have stayed in a hotel.

I don’t mean to sound whiney or needy but I just seem to be blocked in all my efforts. Right now I am limited in what I can do because of the operation so no bike riding, just walking. There is some house work I could do and other little things but I just don’t feel like it. I need to cook some stuff but again I am not feeling it. It is nice out but sunny days just make me feel worse.

Ah well, I got this out, I will take some time and then I will take a walk, make up some soup and then sit outside in the sun with my book and a glass of wine.

Edit: I do have a lot to be grateful for and believe me I most certainly am. My house is paid off, the neighborhood is still pretty safe just noisy, I am ok financially, my kids and my sister have been great with helping me out, my health, even with the potential cancer, is good, the kids’ dad is willing to help me do the little things needed around the house (he was in the siding and window business and does odd jobs on the side), I have a couple of good friends and of course I have you my cyber friends.


Last updated April 24, 2021


Jinn April 24, 2021

You need a mini vacation. Pick a place and go :-) sometimes we just need a change of scene. It helps to just get away for a weekend .

Queensuzu1 Jinn ⋅ April 24, 2021

Trying to do that but I don’t want to go alone.

ConnieK April 24, 2021

Yeah, yeah, you have us all and we DO love you, but we also understand low points. It's a seller's market right now so if you're looking to downsize, you're good, but will what replaces it cost nearly as much and if so, is it smarter to remain?

Jeff was dishonest with you. So was she. You never saw it coming because THEY hid it. I know you still love him. I hope someone new comes into your life. "A new nail drives out the old".

The sun on your face will help and take some time to plan a fun weekend get away and don't invite THEM. Tell them it was a "family vacation" and see how they like it. LOL! People just forget to think, Suz. {{BIG HUGS}}

Jeepsy19 April 29, 2021

I don't know the whole story about Jeff, but I'm sorry that happened to you. Stuff like that really messes with self-esteem and so many other portions of your life. I think my ex-husband is living a fairytale too, but if I get out of my head and pay attention I know in reality it's not true. Either way though it doesn't matter. He damaged me so what do I care about him. It's taken a while to get here and sometimes I slip but it's ok. Healing takes time.

As for a getaway, you mentioned not wanting to go somewhere alone, but I think a little trip by yourself would be a wonderful thing. It doesn't have to be far or extravagant, just find a small quiet place and go. I have learned not to wait on others to live the life I want. I want to see things and experience things and dang it, I am pretty good company! LOL

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