opendiary break in Life as you know it

Open diary got a little to intense for me. The friendships that is. Its just honestly to much. I would literally fall in love on there. I went on like a 3month fantasy trip over this one girl named rose. And I honestly fell in love with her. I made her my everything. And I ended up getting legitly heart broken. And now I ache. I had to block her off of Facebook and say my goodbyes to her. I just couldn't do it anymore. It was overwhelming me and causing me a lot of anxiety. So I put it to rest. I wish it didnt have to be like this but it does. I can't live out these fantasy and ignore real life. Its just not right. So heres my new beginning. My new start. My fresh clean plate. Im over relatioships. And as far as love, I dont even want to think about it. Fuck love that shit is the worst drug ever. I rather be sober for life than get high off love. But lets just hope this round goes a lot smoother.