J is 1 year sober today – sober from lying anyways. He is technically sober from acting out longer but he considers lying to be breaking sobriety so 1 year it is…
1 year ago today I was sitting in Dallas in a car with my best girl friends on a trip and found out such devastating lies and betrayals again. I remember crying and crying yet trying to enjoy my friends. I remember feeling guilty about leaving him alone with the kids. I remember emailing a lawyer (who we ended up seeing 1000 dollars later). I remember kicking him out of the house from Dallas…
A lot can change in a year…
Weeks later we had a full blown pandemic on our hands. He moved back in temporarily to quarantine and then eventually permanently. He built back so much trust. I went through so much anxiety. Then eventually peace.
It is absolutely a miracle that we are happily married at this point…
I will never trust him, and I have had to accept that I will be in a marriage with someone who betrayed me so badly that even 10 years down the road I will never fully trust him.
But I believe even a sick and broken man like him can heal – and so can I.
This year has been healing in so many ways and I am just so thankful.
Never thought I’d be thankful for a pandemic…
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