November 18, 2020 in I write

Today was a lot of big things:
Job interview
Exam result came :) my parents cried in relief
Apartment rent renewal
Time of month started (not “big” but whatever)
Another interview invitation
His tweet

Exam score is his birthday (yes really)
I saw his birthday on clock today
I woke up to that number (time) yesterday

His tweet: I got a little moment of like no that can’t be, but then at the same time I was saying to myself “I want you to be free” “do what you want be happy be free”. I cried but it wasn’t a like “what will I do without you” or “nooo” cry it was more of like a cry of knowing the truth (at least what I think it is). I didn’t have down in dump emotions as I did the last times. This time I was more strong I don’t know how to explain it. Maybe because I’m being more responsible for myself and my life.

There’s always a reason you meet someone. With him, I think he taught me how to become tough. I began practicing mindfulness and self-help stuff and it changed me. Somehow I don’t really feel highs and lows in emotions a lot like I did in past. I think and feel and do things.

Bless his soul. Thank you (him).

Last updated November 18, 2020