independence day in just me ranting about my life

I can’t wait for my independence day. Right now I feel demeaned by the main people in my life and I am not okay. I am changing, I am growing up, I am becoming someone that they don’t accept. And it’s hard because I love them and I want them to love me the same way, but I am realizing that it is not gonna happen the way I thought it would. These past few months shaped me as a person, and I am still in this process of discovering who I am, but I know that I am not 100% the same person I was a year ago. I feel like the people around me that are close don’t, and won’t, let me go on this journey of finding myself. And the only two solutions I have right now are, either try and discover things on my own and behind their backs, or get as far away from them as I can, and for good. When I feel really low, that second solution sounds very appealing, the problem is that I can’t do it. There are so many factors that keep me from doing it, and it is very frustrating. Because I am at this point where I feel like if I don’t do anything about it, I am just gonna explode, or say or do something that might hurt the people around me, and I don’t want to do that. Even if they are the ones hurting me in the first place.