In the mystic in 2019 New Year same me

Anyone else a bundle of nerves for tomorrow? Nothing is cutting it, not the two walks I took yesterday. Nor the MJ I smoked yesterday evening, i mean for that second yes but after that back to anxiety.
So Nevada is primarily a blue state but the tiny town I live in..red. Everyone is a gun carrying, Maga hat wearing republican. Well not everyone but most everyone. My parents are republicans and both my brothers are, my entire extended family..republicans save a few younger second cousins. My husbands family..republicans. I am the only liberal democrat in my family, my family refers to me as the socialist hippie.

Look im not here to bore you with political talk, I have friends who are voting or have voted for trump and I still love and respect them.

Personally I cannot vote for him, I am a Bi biracial woman. I have to much to lose if he is elected another 4 years, but if he does well I will pull on my big girl panties and I will deal. I wont loot, I wont protest, I will look to 2024.

Still im terrified with either outcome, either further shutdowns, restrictions or looting, and the possibility of civil unrest.

I hope everyone who may be feeling the same anxiety and trepidation peace.