I took a personality test thingie the other day, in which it asked how I would respond to certain situations. Each time, I had to take into consideration my children.
Crowds? I am uncomfortable in crowds of strangers while on my own.. but anxious and very tense in crowds when I have my children.
There were others, but I can't recall them off the top of my head.
Anyhow, it got me to thinking who I'd be if I didn't have kids. Or, more realistically, who I'll be after the kids are out of the house. Will I be more spontaneous? Oh yes, that was another thing. Right now? Everything has to be planned out ahead of time, or I have a very hard time relaxing and enjoying what's going on. I do not have the luxury of just zipping off for an adventure.
What will DH and I do once we're free to do whatever? In all reality, I would be perfectly comfortable having 12yo Loulou in charge of everyone (Kay would be 6 by then), and that's only three years out. Not saying we'd go away for the weekend and leave the kids on their own, but I think we'd be more free to enjoy an evening away or whatever. I'd have back up babysitters in my neighbors (assuming we are still here and all our neighbor buddies are still around) that Loulou could call on if she needed them..
See? Yeah, I can't just NOT think it all through and obsess over it slightly.
Anyhow.
I tweaked my back two days ago. It hurt to walk/stand up straight. Yesterday, it was fine... so I cleaned the whole house. This morning, it was fine for about five minutes, then it seized up. Hurts so bad! I'm currently icing it and have taken Motrin. This makes me more determined than ever to get into freaking SHAPE, man... I'll be 31 soon, and can not continue to let my body deteriorate. Need to get my core strong again, which is probably one of the issues I'm facing with my back.
37 days till I fly out to visit my sister and her baby.
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