August 5th in 2020

Today has been pretty lonely. All my husband wants to do is play his video games. I’ve spent all day in bed. Working from home isn’t all that people make it up to be. It’s very lonely especially when your main interaction is over the phone and with an 8 month old baby. I love my little one but it’s hard being a mom. I feel like that’s all I am. I have no friends anymore. All day I’ve been watching Youtube and reviewing some ASL. I’m really hoping Husband gets off his game soon. I hate sitting in bed alone all day. I’m in constant pain. Even now my neck is killing me. I don’t want to live my life in bed. I miss adult interaction. Growing up is a trap. All your friends leave you. Everybody goes their separate ways and suddenly you realize you haven’t even talked to each other in months. It sucks that all husband wants to do on his days off is play games. It’s already all he does after work. It’s not fair to me that I work 2 jobs but he’s the one that gets to do whatever he wants after work. I’ve been trying to be positive but it’s difficult when I’m always alone. It also doesn’t help that I’m being forced to move in with my mom and asshole stepdad. It won’t be good for anybody. I just want to be able to move out on my own. I hate not being able to have people over. Even if I had friends, I wouldn’t really be able to see them. It sucks.