still havent moved...
dann and his boss were supposed to talk today. dann told me yesterday that the funeral home was going to be so dead (no pun intended) that one of the other residents was told to stay home. great! they were going to talk at 4pm. so what happened at 4? OF COURSE a large family walked in to set up arrangements! and what did they do at 5:30 when they had settled everything with the family? dann asked to talk, his boss said tomorrow and they went home. apparently his boss had other things he needed to do. needless to say, im furious.
when dann told me tonight, i yelled. im frustrated with this! i didnt yell at him, just yelled "what?! why?! what happened?!" and proceeded to pout (i am not a pouter, so this was a weird reaction for dann). he honestly looked surprised and apologetic that the meeting didnt happen today. im about to go tell him that if the meeting doesnt happen tomorrow, i am calling the realtor on thursday and setting everything up myself. we need to move forward. i have the money, lets do this.
i get his whole "we need to be a team and i dont feel like im carrying my weight" thing. yes, we are a team as a married couple. yes, we should do things the "right" way. yes, i would LOVE for him to put in half of the cash. but right now, he doesnt have it, i do, we need to move. end of story. it would be great to be in our own place before his father comes back from florida. i dunno...am i just too anxious to get out of here? am i being too forward?
our plan to move was originally last august. then it got pushed to december because he needed to complete his residency and pass his test. then he failed the test, so it was pushed back to now. when i moved into his fathers house, we told his father it wouldnt be more than a year. its been a year and a half. its time to go. its so time to go...
and honestly, its going to be AMAZING when we do get to be on our own completely. this week his father has been gone has been WONDERFUL! we've had tons of fun together and we've been more connected. we seem more relaxed. there arent all these expectations from his father to do things in the house and we can do what we want. honestly, we feel married. and this happens every time his father leaves. its time!! uuuuugggghhhh....
hopefully, everything works out tomorrow. keep your fingers crossed for me!
~mana~
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