I think my last entry was definitely one of the most open entries I've ever written. I got some really nice notes on it and I really do appreciate them.
I have a confession to make. I actually do have another diary on here. I wrote in Open Diary for over ten years then stopped for the last year or so. When OD ended I thought maybe I would make a fresh start and begin writing again. I think I wrote a half dozen or so entries. Just my regular, day to day stuff, then I kind of lost the urge once again. I think my main reason for coming here was to keep up wiith all the friends I made over the years.
When I decided to begin this diary, I gave myself a different name, a different location and my age is off by a few years. I wanted to make absolutely none of my faves from OD and here, would ever recognize me. That was the only way I could feel secure enough to be 100% open and honest here. And I have been and will continue to be. Except for the age, location and name parts lol. I've always been completely honest when writing, I have just never written about the things I want to write about here. Does that make sense?
Moving along, you know who I envy? Men that's who! Have you ever noticed how most men seem to have no modesty or self esteem issues when it comes to their bodies? Every man I've ever been with has been this way. My girlfriends say the same thing. And it doesn't matter one bit what kind of body they have; beer bellies, skinny chicken legs, no butt at all, they have no problems walking around naked or in their underwear. Doesn't faze them one bit. Gosh I wish I could be like that. How freeing it must feel to walk around and not give a damn what anyone thinks. Maybe one day but I doubt it lol.
As usual today, I didn't do much. I'm home alone during the day. My daughter works and the grandchildren go to day care and school. The little ones just started daycare and it seems to be really good for them. Did I even mention before that we all live together? Well we do and for the most part it works out well. Anyway, I have no car so I'm pretty much stuck very day and it does get boring sometimes. I do pick up the house, clean the kitchen and do laundry, all the fun stuff lol. I sleep a lot too. I guess that's due to the fact that I don't go to sleep till 3 in the mornings, sometimes later. I've always been a night owl, I love to stay up late. It does get to be a pain in the ass when I occasionally want or need to go to bed early. I do get up every morning to help my daughter get the kids ready. Then I usually go back to sleep sometime between 11:00 and 1:00 for 2 or 3 hours. Sometimes longer and sometimes practically the whole day. But usually it works out to be about 8 hours total just not consecutive. My dad was the same way when he retired, up and down. And my mother loved to sleep! I guess I've got a little of both of them in me when it comes to sleeping.
Well this may be my most boring entry yet so I'm going to wrap it up now. Thanks for reading.
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