So I’m MEX, or that’s what I’d like you to know me as. I’m writing this journal to try to pin down exactly who I am. My whole life I’ve been living for someone else and I’m tired of it. Just to give you a quick idea of my appearance, I’m 24, long blonde hair, blue eyes, about 258 lbs, and I have tattoos. I’m thick but I think I have a pretty face. I keep trying to remind myself that my weight doesn’t determine my worth. I’d like to think I’m pretty smart too, but I have my moments.
I have severe anxiety issues. From past incidents and previous relationships. I was abused mentally and physically for 9 years. I got the courage to leave and I’m proud of myself everyday for that achievement. I suffer daily from mental issues from that shit. It’s absolutely baffling what another human being can do to you and you not even notice after awhile.
I have issues with sex. I am a sex addict. I can fuck morning, noon, and 3 times at night. This is a daily thing. No matter how many times, it’s never enough. I have thoughts all day of sex and being tied up and taken advantage of. Of being used for pleasure and then praised and pleased myself. That’s a bit much for the first entry but I’m being honest. While I have the courage to get it out, I need to.
I will make another book and focus on my erotic fantasies. I love writing about what I want to happen to me or have done to me. I have serious fantasies that might put some off but it’s an amazing outlet for my sex drive for me to write about it.
I’m nothing special, but I’m different. I’m just me.
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