just cry in love sucks

hes the only one i got and does he really care or feel the same im just a stupid loner why should he, my mom breaks my heart everyday drinking drinking drinking, my dad hates me i only have him i miss people i miss everyone extroverts are rly struggling rn especially on the weekends because thats when there alcoholic mom is home i space out and think abt all the bad things that i hated abt our relationship things i dont wanna think abt so i open my eyes and close them again only to see a worse memory im angry at myself for becoming so attached and for trusting so many people that dont even trust me but i mean here i am with 2 people 1 friend my age and im absolutley broken