Diary Writing And You. in General Randomness

So once upon a time I was on a site called MyDearDiary. I loved that site. I wrote in it constantly. I had two accounts. But then one day it crashed. After that I got on Opendiary but my soul just wasn't in it. I wrote every once in a while but not often enough. And then I had a breakdown and my posts because very dark. And then OD started restricting my posts from the public eye. But then OD closed down. At least there was warning this time. And so now I am here. But I feel even less motivated than I did at OD. I'm hoping that this will change but I don't see how.