I appreciated all the input/opinions/advice you guys gave-truly. I have decided to do what most of you suggested-to stay. Honestly I knew it was a silly thought to end the relationship soley on work schedule conflict, I suppose the "cautious" side of me was over-crowding the "Bigger Picture".
To be completley honest here I have never felt so connected to someone before. The connection runs deep-say the same things, finishing each others sentences, buying things that are identical. Yea I know.....blah. But, seriously I am loving it. It is incredibly easy to love this man. Which I have NEVER had. All my past relationships have been "work". But with this one...it just happens, he says all the right things at the right time. He wants the same things i want in the future. And all of these good things are scaring the hell out of me! Sad to say but I suppose with all these failed prior relationships I just assumed this one would follow the same route.
But no ball has dropped, nothing I have really objected about with this one. He is essetially perfect. So why am I so scared-----because I have never been "here" before. I could actually have found "the one" the "husband" the "father for my children"........and that scares me shitless. I literally will enjoy my entire weekend with him, then when i go home I almost want to cry because i have this crazy fear of the unknown. It is very hard to explain. Sad part is I am old enough where if i ask other peoples advice they simply say---enjoy it. I think they forgot that fear some people get from "Too much of a good thing". Or actually to give a better description of the fear.......going to the next stage in life. I have never been a wife, never been a mother. And i feel with this man.....he will make me these things. I am wonderfully fearful.
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