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I’ve started to realize over the past month or so that weekends - but Friday and Saturday nights, in particular - are really depressing for me. There’s the sense, I think, that every other adult ...


Of all things astrological, it does seem like there’s something to the idea that communication is fucked sideways when Mercury is in Retrograde, as it is from about a week ago until just before C...


November 25, 2017

The right amount of distance in Cutlery

I can’t figure out the proper amount of space that you need between us. I think because it changes from day to day. And it’s easy to misinterpret necessary distance that might range from life’s b...


November 19, 2017

Things I remember in Cutlery

You suggested I write about things I don’t remember. I will. But first what I do remember. The instant connection between us. How easy it was to talk to you. How in sync we were. How everything w...


November 11, 2017

1,353,663 words in Cutlery

My ex-wife maintained an anonymous online journal for 10 years. Actually, longer than that, but she deleted several years’ worth of entries at one point. Ten years is what remains online today. S...


November 10, 2017

I know in Cutlery

What is something I can’t deny? What is one thing I know? What’s the first thing that comes to mind? At my lowest points, it feels like there is nothing I know for sure. The religion that I grew ...


November 09, 2017

Touch in Cutlery

Of course a billion words have been written about the power of physical contact. Studies about babies in orphanages becoming psychopaths because they didn’t get that at an early age. Or am I maki...


November 05, 2017

Self-centeredness in Cutlery

Something I question about myself: If you love someone, you should want them to be happy, like all the time, and no matter what. And of course, I do. But … what if that person’s happiness means ...


November 05, 2017

I miss you when you're gone in Cutlery

I’m out West, and my phone just dinged with an alert about a Facebook message. My Pavlovian response was to think it was you, even though - time zone difference - it’s way past the point when I k...


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