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4 days ago

Metrics in Rejuvenate

We had “metrics” today which is the office-term where I work that means “performance review.” Basically, they pull up four of the phone calls you’ve done at random, and one of the chats in the ch...


”Ashley— I’m going to ask you to do something hard. Very hard. And I can not promise you that you won’t get hurt. In fact, I am almost certain that you will. For that pain, I am sorry. But it is ...


I stayed up late talking about The Muppets. What a fun reason to be sleepy today. Haha. BUT, my husband has his own car now. I think he should have waited to get something more long-lasting, but...


September 17, 2017

Bloom in Rejuvenate

Truthfully, I’m not expecting much because it’s not like I can. Life is complicated. Life is busy. People are more-so. You do keep surprising me and I enjoy our conversations. There is just an ov...


September 17, 2017

I Wish The Day Would Come in Rejuvenate

Baby E woke up early today with an upset stomach and the curse of the blood moon has befallen me four days early. It makes me feel so helpless to see Baby E so ill. It’s a humble reminder how li...


September 16, 2017

What Do You Care If I Go? in Rejuvenate

It’s when he seems sad and pleading that I feel the most like I’m doing something wrong. It’s like, I have to actively remind myself of why we’re doing this and how we ended up here, because he c...


September 14, 2017

A Day Late in Rejuvenate

So, my husband has been upset with me because I “seem so much happier.” He was being pretty emotionally mature about everything, I thought, but suddenly, it’s an issue. I think he only tells hims...


September 07, 2017

Sense and Sensibility in Rejuvenate

”Would you hide my fears and never say, ‘Tomorrow, I must go’?” Maybe it wasn’t what I was looking for, but I didn’t exactly avert my gaze either when I found it. What a lovely trap to fall into....


September 01, 2017

Pause in Rejuvenate

Not sure if I had a breakdown or a breakTHROUGH of sorts yesterday. My husband has been acting more supportive since we unofficially “broke up.” I know that it’s because he’s hoping for me to ch...


I think I feel less “moody” now. I’m starting to notice that I have a few “freak out” days a month and I really wonder now if my monthly cycle has something to do with it. I’m an emotional person...


August 24, 2017

My New Job in Rejuvenate

So, I’ve worked four days at my new job. One more day, and I’ll have completed my first week here. I was really worried about not fitting in, not learning fast enough, etc. However, I think I’m d...


August 20, 2017

Imagination in Rejuvenate

Baby E is so good at “visualizing” and re-creating things. If you give him a shoelace, he’ll arrange it into letters, pictures, numbers. If he has a straw, he’ll bend it into letters. If he has b...


August 19, 2017

Sleeping Beast in Rejuvenate

Some Things: On one hand, I thought I would experience relief if I heard these words from you. On the other hand, the motivations behind them bring me a different sort of fear. Emotions are wei...


August 18, 2017

Eyre (edit) in Rejuvenate

”a beauty neither of fine colour nor long eyelash, nor pencilled brow, but of meaning, of movement, of radiance. Then her soul sat on her lips, and language flowed.” Yesterday was my last shift a...


August 17, 2017

Circle in Rejuvenate

So, my first day back to work last year was the same day one of my close friends had her baby. Today was my last day at this job, and my other close friend (who is the sister of the aforementione...


August 09, 2017

21st in Rejuvenate

They officially offered me the job yesterday and I accepted. Happily. I wanted to write about it last night, but I wanted to tell a friend of mine in particular before posting it in here. I wante...


August 08, 2017

Scorpion in Rejuvenate

I had one of those “brief” dreams where you dream of something just as you doze off, but then suddenly wake up. In this snippet of a dream, I was looking at the top shelf of our storage room wher...


Excavate the ruins of my modest kingdom. There’s something waiting underneath the stones. A multitude of undiscovered secrets all written on the fragments of my bones. Let it fall so gently throu...


It’s very strange to be listening to my inner voice more lately because I usually question everything to death. I always regret not listening, though. I’m not really sure why I let the messages o...


August 05, 2017

A Sorta Fairytale in Rejuvenate

on my way up north up on the ventura i pulled back the hood and i was talking to you and i knew then it would be a life long thing but i didn’t know that we we could break a silver lining and i’...


August 05, 2017

Counting Chickens in Rejuvenate

The interview is over and I think because I’ve been on pins and needles for so long trying to get the test sorted, trying to practice my interview questions, trying to figure out what my husband ...


July 26, 2017

Freefall in Rejuvenate

Monday- I left work three hours early to go to the testing center at the college and take the clerical test. MS Word and MS Excel proficiency were part of the test. The first portion was a writte...


In the middle of everything, life goes on. I was reminded of this when I checked my email and found a letter from the college: ”We are pleased to inform you that you have moved forward to the tes...


July 17, 2017

Unofficial in Rejuvenate

So, I think we’re unofficially “broken up.” Not a legal divorce, but no more maybe. He is pretty angry at me and hurt. He’s been crying off and on. I told him about being nervous about the job I...


July 17, 2017

Take The Leap in Rejuvenate

I applied for another job. This one was titled “Student Services Technician.” It’s at our community college. Beneath all the jargon, it sounds like it’s a job answering phones and helping student...


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