Asenath Waite ⋅ 51
Asperger's, plus PTSD, or very possibly Borderline Personality disorder; with severe anxiety, and antisocial traits. Hell hath no fury like a long undiagnosed aspie whose been kicked around her entire life. I lack the subtlety or the brawn to be a serial killer, so I'll write about it instead, and see if that helps at all; though I doubt it very seriously.
"I know that light is not for me; yet in my new wildness and freedom I almost welcome the bitterness of alienage. For although nepenthe has calmed me, I know always that I am an outsider; a stranger in this century and among those who are still men."
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27 Years. in The Big, Blue, House. Year two.
As of 6:25 this morning, from the day I met Don. And since the tree was in the living room anyway, and we were getting each other gifts anyway, it seemed only reasonable to put them under said tr...
Work in progress update, with picture. in The Big, Blue, House. Year two.
It’s at about six hours now. Tonight I’ll definitely finish the pencil, and then comes the color. I bought some new Prismacolor pencils, but I don’t know if I’ll use them on this. An incredibly...
I’m fascinated by its ability to create images of things too intricate, and too perfect to exist in the real world. Or too costly to make. Starting with unicorns: Sadly it doesn’t seem to be able...
Wherein I've refurbished the old kitchen clock. in The Big, Blue, House. Year two.
It came with the house. When it was plugged in, it ran very slowly. So I took it apart, took out the motor, and replaced it with a cheap, battery operated clock piece from a Chinese seller on Ama...
Some days I'm just glad that I'm not employed. in The Big, Blue, House. Year two.
I woke up still sleepy, but hungry. So I ate, took a third of a Benadryl, and sat down to internet shop while I waited for it to kick in. (Why are there a thousand varieties of nonskid kitchen ma...
But at $5 a month, that’s comparable with what I pay Shudder, or Wyzecam, for a service comparable with Facebook or Twitter X, both of which are ad supported, without pop up ads. I’m really sorr...
We’re switching the tree that I just leave up from summer to fall, and for a few minutes I had both sets of lights on, just for funzies. Prepare for lift off: I think next year I’ll move it to ...
Wherein I've washed the drapes. With pictures. in The Big, Blue, House. Year two.
In news absolutely no one but myself cares about, I finally have the migraine/sleeping situation under control. I put a 2” memory foam pad between the layers of foam I normally sleep on, and the...
I ramble a bit. The message is at the bottom. My apologies. I’m just putting this here for a sort of peer review before I send it off. I know that no matter how I word it, her interpretation will...
I asked Half Sister for perspective, and got it. No, she won’t be coming here. It pains me greatly. I’d dearly love to have the girl I remember here, and I cling to some fragment of hope, but it ...
People I seriously need advice. in The Big, Blue, House. Year two.
The Favorite Niece messaged my art page on Facebook. Not my personal page, my art page. And she messaged me from another person’s account, some guy whose name I don’t recognize. So I got this mes...
Roofers. in The Big, Blue, House. Year two.
It’s been raining hammers for the last three days. Or at least it sounded like it. Nail guns, pry bars, slamming rolls of roofing, BANG BANG BANGING from eight a.m. til’ noon, then a one hour bre...
I said I was going to do this months ago, but it’s a long list, so I’ve procrastinated. This is all stuff that I listen to regularly, while doing housework. Obviously it’s not all that I listen t...
I apologize, I’ve spent most of my internet time over the last two weeks or so at squabbles.io Until yesterday, when I basically rage quit, as they say in MMOs. The super short version is that th...
I live on a gluten free, lactose free, low carb, mostly pescatarian diet. To minimize arthritis, and IBS. There are a LOT of things that I try to avoid for my health, but there’s very little that...
I need to get in shape. in The Big, Blue, House. Year two.
So roofers from the Neighborhood Partnership are coming to “look at it”, which is awesome, because it’s free, and Don doesn’t need to be clambering up there. But to see the leak(s) from the insi...
Any love for my Sema cat? She’s fifteen. She deserves for more people to know how wonderful she is. And how adorable. And how comical. And how many toes she has. (26 total.) And how much I’...
I woke up at ten, and put away some laundry, but I was still groggy; so I took a third of a Benadryl and went back to sleep. Then I woke up at four, and set out to find food. My nutrition has gon...
A couple pictures of Minerva. in The Big, Blue, House. Year two.
Aka “the stripy kid”, as Don calls her. That windowsill had a lot of gray cat hair on it when we moved here. So it’s historically been a popular cat spot. She’s an incredible bug finder. She’ll ...
French guy tries to understand Americans This survey is non academic or marketing related, just a personal project. Don’t hesitate to go into as much detail as possible. You are free to not answ...
She’s running it out of the back of her house! The grand opening is today! I just happened to find it looking at Google for nearby stores, to gauge the pagan community. And of course WE HAVE A H...
It has come to my attention that there are people who adopt the label of being autistic, without even an interest in a professional diagnosis. As if it were a fashion statement, or a culture, aki...
Don watches a lot of low budget horror movies. Once in a while one is funny enough to hold my attention. I give ‘The Uninvited’ four & a half out five stars. Made in 1987, it has 2 stars on I...
Pagan festivals 101 in The Big, Blue, House. Year two.
In the unlikely event that any non-pagan person should want to attend one, without standing out. This is how to blend in, amongst the weirdos. ~~~*~~~~*~~~~*~~ Attire: During the day it doesn’t ...
A quick rant. in The Big, Blue, House. Year two.
Every time I make the mistake of looking at a YouTube video about H.P. Lovecraft, I wind up coming here to vent. I’ve done it so many times now, that I might ought to just search for my own older...
