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since I started working part time I’ve been looking at my paychecks and thinking, were my expenses ever so high that this wasn’t enough? according to my calculations I can sort of just barely squ...


don’t worry, all is wellall is so perfectly, damnably well I’ve been feeling very loved and the weather has been cradling me in its hands. today it was that perfect luscious temperature where you...


I’m off for three fucking days in a row and it is nice out for the first time in my whole LIFE. after all this whining about how it’s only ever sunny out when I’m working I am now inexplicably ch...


Current books: The Fifth Season by N.K. Jemisin Current music: I have a spotify playlist titled ‘most important’ that I purposely have not downloaded and made available to myself offline in order...


I am filled with the energy of someone who will not let her life be the way it is anymore. I’ve changed things around in my apartment enough that it is almost a perfect place to be and I am makin...


is it possible to have a job in which you don’t get emotionally entangled? that doesn’t define your existence? or is anything you spend 40 hours a week doing, that you depend upon for income, by ...


hey! my credit union finally offered me an auto loan with a decent interest rate and they also have this auto buying service where you uh… don’t have to deal with a car salesperson even once ever...


some days my coworkers are my favorite people and work is fun and other days I feel like I could have a grand mal seizure on the line and they wouldn’t even notice until they realized it was taki...


so this wild shit is happening where I’ve been hanging out with this guy and the more I see him the more I like him? we’ve hardly so much as kissed and idk it’s like feelings town pretty much alr...


in my latest set of Impulsive But Very Correct Decisions I have applied to get my TEFL certificate so I can move to warm places and talk to people there, and I am equally excited about a current ...


Current books: today I went to the library looking for a book that jumped out at me so that I could read in the sun. it was a little too cold out to read outside in the sun, I realized after walk...


I’m feeling a lil crisis-y, not necessarily in the world-ending-despair sense of the word but in the ‘stuff is about to happen’ sense of the word. stuff is about to happen. I don’t know what. but...


I am in california and I’m having a lot of revelations. things about my relationship with my brother, his relationship with our mom, and stuff about myself in general that goes with my general th...


I will be warm in California relatively soon! where I am now, it is snowing, after having already snown many an inch, and I am inside a dwelling I pay money to live in, with the heat up, and my s...


everything is exhausting but I’m having fun with it I guess?? is this the cook’s life? I think this is the cook’s life. desperate drinks after hours, every quadrant of my body sporting multiple m...


I’m planning another trip to San Luis Obispo because, you know, of course I am. I deeply cannot afford this but I’ve also decided in a bit of a manic fit that I not only need to go, but also get ...


[tw sexual assault things] I burst into tears last night because it occurred to me, suddenly, to call it rape. I haven’t been calling it rape. I’ve been calling it sexual assault but why haven’t ...


it is incomprehensibly cold out, the kind of cold that closes grocery stores and restaurants, in Minnesota. the wind chill factor is -50 F or -45 C but it is cold that can’t be fathomed no matter...


my therapist suggested I keep my kink shit and my dating shit separate and I am not totally sure what she meant by that and I’m not even sure I agree but I did pretty much cry through our entire ...


I hadn’t thought about Frank for a long time - for the longest time in my life - for so long I don’t even remember the last time I thought about him - I mean he was still reappearing in my life a...


today was my last day at culinary school and the feelings are a lot and my dread about the future is real but my parents came and gave me a card with that Eleanor Roosevelt card about doing one t...


today I bought a very large jar of pickles and decided that Costco is not a store designed for people like me. by people like me I don’t just mean socially anxious and wigged out by spaces that a...


wow, tomorrow is already Saturday, aka my Monday. I am torn between having this awesome career and doing absolutely nothing whatsoever forever. I’ve been thinking that the culture at the restaura...


hello this week has been very wowie and work asked me to come in tonight and I said no even though someone filled in for me for somewhat dubious reasons yesterday. I’LL PAY IT FORWARD LATER. so, ...


Current books: the Culinary Institute of America’s garde manger book, and Chrissy Teigen’s new cookbook, and my food and labor cost control textbook Current music: I’ve been revisiting Neutral Mi...


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