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Current books: the Culinary Institute of America’s garde manger book, and Chrissy Teigen’s new cookbook, and my food and labor cost control textbook Current music: I’ve been revisiting Neutral Mi...


I am relaxing alone for the first time since Saturday and the fact that I am not being productive instead is making my butt clench up. it’s 6 pm and it’s pitch black outside and it’s gonna be all...


chef kept saying I was having a strong week this week, that I’ve ‘really stepped up my game’ and I can’t tell that I’ve done anything different. I’m better rested this week than I was last week. ...


I made venison stroganoff today. I wish there more left of it for me to eat. I made butternut squash ravioli yesterday, the pasta and filling both from scratch, and enough got in my way that I on...


finished all my homework before the weeeeeed even wore off [100 emoji 100 emoji 100 emoji] I am baking bread at 450 degrees and the heat is on and I am bundled in a hoodie and sweatpants and inch...


today was very dramatic and then I ate two weed caramels that I made and did laundry and thought a lot of thoughts, and reluctantly turned on my heat because they did not have the space heater I ...


-I got a new blanket, that I think is revolutionizing the way I sleep, I find its weight and texture and color much lovelier than the big ugly fluffy blanket I’ve been sleeping under, that I thin...


September 19, 2018

anacanthus in cavalcade of anger and fear

a few weeks ago when I had an edible I stood under a tree in wonder, having no idea that such a tree even existed. at first my thought was I wonder what tree this is and then I realized the answe...


hello summer is in its death throes, not in like a car accident way but in a dying peacefully after a long and satisfying life way. what I’m trying to say is it’s warm out, but at night, especial...


Current books: I have been reading The Living by Annie Dillard since POSSIBLY THE BEGINNING OF TIME (aka July 23). I don’t usually stretch out books this long but holy SHIT have I been too busy a...


hello I strongly considered calling in sick to work today because it was soooo nice out and I was soooo not feeling it, but then I went, and my station was DOUBLE BOOKED, so I did not have to wor...


last night I got home from a very trying shift at work and didn’t know what to do with myself and an article came up on my twitter feed about a spider that lived for 43 years, in the same nest, a...


yesterday was my first shift working the cold station ALONE in the restaurant. it was terrifying, especially because it was my first day back to work after like 6 days of vacation?? the prep on t...


I want more tattoos it’s SO ANNOYING. I don’t even know what I want them to bE I just want to enjoy the pain and then have a cool drawing on me. please send money. I won’t just spend it all on ta...


(gonna talk about some body image stuff) yesterday I think for probably the first time in my whole entire life I WAS TOLD BY AN AUTHORITY FIGURE THAT I WAS NOT WEARING ENOUGH CLOTHING. it was hid...


sometimes I think about how when I started at the bookstore I really loved that job and it makes me wonder if I love being a line cook because it’s new and challenging and exciting and maybe in a...


my therapist called my current state a ‘growth spurt’ and I hope she’s right, and I hope it continues to be a good thing. after running into John’s friends at Eaux Claires I texted him, just to s...


hey! eaux claires was this weekend and it was a lot of things. the whole “not releasing a lineup” thing ended up being very disappointing because it was mostly all the same bands that play every ...


best books I’ve read: poetry: They Can’t Kill Us Until They Kill Us by Hanif AbdurraqibDepression & Other Magic Tricks by Sabrina BenaimTell Me by Kim AddonizioLucifer at the Starlite by Kim ...


so I know you probably don’t want to hear my fruitcake opinions about like, the motions of the cosmos, but some really fucking mercury retrograde shit has been happening lately and YEAH NO mercur...


I no longer work in marketing!!!!!!!!! and my body is kinda full of beer about it. it’s actually weird how many boys from my past, or tangentially from my past, have resurfaced in the last few da...


on setting boundaries + expectations with boys: Michael tried to reschedule on me AGAIN (he rescheduled or cut short literally every plan we had) and when I told him I was annoyed and that I need...


-deskjob things: I put in my notice! I only have to be here two more times after today! I have to write a press release for a thing I can guarantee with absolute certainty that NOBODY cares about...


so! hey. forgive me if I’m a little “”“up”“” right now. I just did two back-to-back stages (pronounced in the french way but I don’t want to go looking for the little accent chapeau or whatev) at...


I don’t even know if you could call this a 180 from my previous entry. Michael and I finally went out and I am extremely smitten with him even though he is an objectively terrible kisser. was he ...


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