Silver Satan

I am a girl. Writing because I cannot not write. That's all there is to it that's all there is to me. You can call me Jinn or Demon.

How odd I can have all this inside me and to you it’s just words.

David Foster Wallace -The Pale King

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15 hours ago

Why in Dead Words

I thought I’d write about why I am writing so much about the faire. I figured it would be easier to sort out my emotions in writing and my emotions are at an all time high. I feel cathartic about...


16 hours ago

2 Days in Dead Words

It’s freaking two days before the faire. I have a wonderful costume, everyone in my family is going, I’m able to bring cash to spend, I already know which shoppes I really want to look at. The on...


2 days ago

Yes in Dead Words

I am WAY too excited about this faire. My dress came in!! SQUEEEEEEEEEEE It’s beautiful and lovely and it fits! There are tiny bells on the tie on the chemise and I jingle when I walk. >> O...


4 days ago

I don't cry in Dead Words

I need to grieve my losses, to accept that they’re are holes in the cup. I don’t cry, I don’t get angry, I let live and let go but I am left empty and filled with pain and sadness. Sadness I can’...


The faire the faire the faire the faire !!! This entry is all about the faire and how much I am looking forward to it. X bought me a corset but when it arrived I noticed it was a little more Stea...


Mother’s Day for me is like ripping off a band-aid and realizing the wounds fresher than expected and it needs another coat of bactine. Facebook on Mother’s Day is that times however many people...


I’m so tired sometimes I don’t think treatment is working at all. I’m so depressed all I want to do is sleep my days away not because sleep sounds good but because being awake does not. I feel ho...


The guys worked late today they came in dead tired but still brought me an adorable Giraffe cake, and a gift from the dog lol !!! The boys themself got me cards, my real gifts to come at the fair...


May 16, 2017

Random Blurbs in Dead Words

Tomorrows my birthday and even though I’m not celebrating till the 27th I’m ridiculously happy about it. Normally I don’t give two shits about my birthday but this year I feel happy. I wish I kne...


May 15, 2017

Ka Boom in Dead Words

The truck needs to be taken in and there is no telling what it will cost. I’ve got to call and cancel my therapy appointment for tomorrow which I wasn’t looking forward to anyway even though I sh...


May 13, 2017

Another day in Dead Words

I ordered a corset which comes in tomorrow and I am over the moon excited about my upcoming birthday. Or rather the 27th which is a far cry from the 17th my actual birthday but the day I get to c...


May 10, 2017

Seeking Cave in Dead Words

I’ve spent the last two days trying to find my writing space. Not literal space although if anyone knows a good isolated cave for rent fill me it! Head space, I have it or I don’t and when I don...


May 09, 2017

5/9/2017 in This isn't poetry

Smoke dances with air sandalwood leaves it’s stain The room is spinning though I am sitting still Tears form but pour inside cutting as razors against soft skin Demons are my kin Again and again...


May 08, 2017

Been A while in Dead Words

It’s been awhile since I’ve posted and I don’t really know why. Maybe it has something to do with me trying to get my shit together, maybe I’ve been depressed and haven’t really known it. I hones...


Because of a PB user losing their job because of things posted publicly on PB I will be keeping my diary as is, which is public and when common sense dictates putting entries friends only, or pri...


I dreamt I lived in a house where fairy tale creatures (elves, fairies, trolls, and more) Where born into existence every time a human thought one up. They started as infants and were raised by m...


April 25, 2017

TV and More =^-^= in Dead Words

I promised myself I would keep writing no matter what and here are the results. A boring compilation of my last few days. I spent most of the day curled up in front of the tv with the animals no...


April 21, 2017

Photos in Dead Words


April 21, 2017

Friday in Dead Words

I keep posting my CBT entries public and I don’t mean to. Not that I have any deep dark secrets but they are really just lists of what I’ve done that day, what’s happened, and how I feel or techn...


April 20, 2017

Pushing Through in Dead Words

Pulling on the reigns and trying to redirect myself. The last few days I’ve been down and today I needed a change. A cup of tea now that I’ve showered might make all the difference. Now pause so ...


The door bell sounded and me still half asleep and quite naked sat up beneath the cover of the futon and swallowed a curse mixed with foggy dreams. It took me a solid minute to even realize it wa...


April 18, 2017

Ball of Light in Dead Words

My therapist told me to envision a stream of light to help with my anxiety… She took me through a guided meditation… She took me through two guided meditations… She made me do a breathing excessi...


April 18, 2017

And we're off... in Dead Words

So yesterday we were in the kroger parking lot when the smart chip in the truck key crumbled into glass and small metal bits. We had a truck full of groceries and it was pouring down rain. We end...


April 17, 2017

Life in Dead Words

Well today was eventful, after a stop at kroger we find out the electronic part of the truck key was broke while X was at work as it shattered in his pocket while we were shopping. This means we ...


April 17, 2017

Learning ASL in Dead Words

First week of learning ASL and I’ve learned the alphabet and a few words. I took the weekend off because there was a lot to do with family on Sat and on Sun I slept the day away. I spent the days...


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