Silver Satan ⋅

The diary of a NEET who is most likely Singing about Narwhals and reading Hentai.

A life without regret is a tree without growth rings. It’s neither fun nor beautiful.

Manager Hong (The Suspicious Housekeeper)

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2 days ago

Today Tonight in Dead Words

I feel like I can’t breath and all the world is bleeding out of me.


It’s about time to check out and my aunt is sleeping. She just woke up asked for late check out which is at one then went back to bed. The problem is it’s 11:00 and when her and her kiddo take sh...


July 10, 2017

Just woke up in Dead Words

Henna even dry Henna and white sheets do not mix. I now have brown floral designs on my hotel pillows, but at least my hand is pretty lol. I’ve been taking a truly awe inspiring amount of photos ...


I got to the doctors office today to find out my appointment had been canceled and they had forgotten to call me but sent me a letter by mail. I bet it gets here in the next few days. I’ve alread...


July 01, 2017

RP Rant in Dead Words

Cry me a damn river. I am getting really fucking tired of hearing people bitch about the deaths of their charas. My chara is sitting at a bar talking to someone she cares about. Someone enters wh...


June 29, 2017

Out of my head in Dead Words

I quit therapy I’ve quit a lot of things, and in the spirit of getting back on my A game I’ve donated myself to my aunt for a week or two. My aunt is going through a mess of a time she just got a...


June 25, 2017

6/25/2017 in This isn't poetry

“I thought the most beautiful thing in the world must be the light that casts a shadow.” ― Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar I’m afraid of myself, of the shadow that I cast, for it’s deep and it’s wi...


June 22, 2017

I woke up today in Dead Words

I’ve not been around lately not here not much on Facebook either. I took some advice and started seeking more people out even if those people are online. I combined that advice with some advice a...


June 15, 2017

Book Scented Candles in Dead Words

Went in search of Sherlock themed candles i.e. candles that smell like Baker St. Found them plus Butterbeer and Rivendale scents. Also found a new book series and for the hell of it added a slew ...


June 15, 2017

Here I am in Dead Words

Been exercising the last two days and I hate it. I find this slightly humorous because exercising used to be one of my favorite things to do. Now I loathe every minute of it because I am tired a...


So today I got out of therapy and wanted a drink, a strong one. I don’t normally drink and I damn sure don’t ever get stressed and want a drink but still that was the type of day I had. A bit of ...


June 11, 2017

(Intro) I'm a NEET in Dead Words

Hello my name is Willow, and I am a NEET. Actually I’m not, not Willow I’m totally a NEET. Yet Willow is what they call me, they being the people that call me anything. I’m 31 years old I don’t d...


June 11, 2017

Like in Dead Words

Staring into the echo of blinding emptiness this light that shines lifts stains and peels vines for crowns like halos to make sins holy. Bless thorn cradled pedals of crimson silks and blush pink...


June 06, 2017

Babble in Dead Words

It’s a new day 5:30 in the morning and I’m dog sitting for my sister whose off at the casino. I don’t normally awake so early in the morning because most often I’m trying to sleep through life. A...


June 01, 2017

Hiding in Dead Words

I’ve been hiding and I didn’t even realize. It makes such perfect sense that now I feel quite stupid to not have seen it before. All this guilt, all these terribly painful emotions I push them ou...


May 31, 2017

The Beast in Dead Words

What am I looking for ? A job ? A story ? A mended heart ? All of the above ? I don’t put enough value in me getting better. That’s what my therapist said anyway. Well no shit, I don’t put a whol...


May 28, 2017

Moving Forward in Dead Words

I need to move forward in my life. It sounds so simple and I’m sure on the surface it is simple, but life is never on the surface, it’s lived well below the surface in the depths of the soul. I l...


May 27, 2017

Goodnight, Anime in Dead Words

I had a strange day. The kind of day where you go through every emotion possible all while experiencing life as though you were in a sauna for seven and a half hours. It’s easy to vent I should k...


Fucking Ready for SCARBY Faire Day Faire Day !!! La La La la Laaaaaaaa ! From the Joust to scantly clad ladies and a human chess match I am overly excited about this trip to the faire you may of...


May 25, 2017

Why in Dead Words

I thought I’d write about why I am writing so much about the faire. I figured it would be easier to sort out my emotions in writing and my emotions are at an all time high. I feel cathartic about...


May 25, 2017

2 Days in Dead Words

It’s freaking two days before the faire. I have a wonderful costume, everyone in my family is going, I’m able to bring cash to spend, I already know which shoppes I really want to look at. The on...


May 23, 2017

Yes in Dead Words

I am WAY too excited about this faire. My dress came in!! SQUEEEEEEEEEEE It’s beautiful and lovely and it fits! There are tiny bells on the tie on the chemise and I jingle when I walk. >> O...


May 21, 2017

I don't cry in Dead Words

I need to grieve my losses, to accept that they’re are holes in the cup. I don’t cry, I don’t get angry, I let live and let go but I am left empty and filled with pain and sadness. Sadness I can’...


The faire the faire the faire the faire !!! This entry is all about the faire and how much I am looking forward to it. X bought me a corset but when it arrived I noticed it was a little more Stea...


Mother’s Day for me is like ripping off a band-aid and realizing the wounds fresher than expected and it needs another coat of bactine. Facebook on Mother’s Day is that times however many people...


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