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I was never a girl who dreamed of having a wedding. When asked my only assumption about my wedding day was that it would be dictated by my mother and future mother-in-law’s desires. In that same ...

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It is Monday. Our daughters are off school today. One is at work with me; the other is at my mom’s house with the boy. Normally, my husband is responsible for picking the girls up from school in ...

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My heart hurts today.

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Day 5 has ended. Elul 29 is over. The world is still here, the Australian stock market is currently up, and martial law has not taken over. There are two days remaining. Our neighbors, who are li...

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I woke up this morning to find a can of Budlight in the trash can. When I went to the refrigerator to make the baby his bottle, I found another can (full and still closed) in there. My silence wa...

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He came into house a few minutes ago. He’s been outside for the last six hours, fashioning some sort of rain gutter / barrel garden watering thing so he can feed his family when the economy falls...

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While the children and I go Halloween costume shopping, he has chosen to stay at home and build a garden watering system. ”Tomorrow,” he says, ”is The Mystery of the Schmitta.” The watering syst...

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My husband found out that he was adopted when he was 19. He was driving down the road with his childhood best friend, and Robert looked at him and asked, ”How come you never talk about the fact ...

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I won’t miss the mood swings. The grumpy expressions. The sullen silence. I won’t miss him falling asleep on the couch, the floor, the kitchen table, or the bed in the middle of a day because he ...

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There are moments when I forget that my entire life is unraveling. Moments when things seem almost normal. This is the new normal. For now, at least. I picture being divorced. I picture living i...

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He has five days remaining to save our marriage. A local dentist was hosting “Freedom Day” today and offered free dental work for military and their families. Naturally, we took advantage. It to...

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He was married before me. She was a hair dresser, and he walked into her barber shop. She cut his hair, he left, then he turned around, went right back through the doors, and asked her out. I’ve ...

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I feel a little rush of anger every time I tell my children that they can’t have something they want. It wasn’t bad when I thought we couldn’t afford it. Now that I know we could have afforded it...

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When the call came through, I wanted to throw up, and I feared I would pass out. I was driving. He said he had to talk to me about something that would upset me. He sounded sad and exhausted, as ...

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I’ve never believed that ultimatums had a place in marriages, but I’ve also never had children before. It is an emotional battle to feel as if you are forced to decide between your spouse and you...

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I met my husband in April of 2007. In August, at a Blue October concert, we looked at each other and he said to me, “We’re in trouble, aren’t we?” A week later, after only officially dating for s...

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To My Amaya’s Kindergarten Teacher: Right now, my daughter is just another student to you. One more name on the attendance roster, one more body in a chair, one more blurry face. That’s okay. Yo...

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