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suture self in Poetry
i don't want to see it without seeing iti don't want to hear it without hearing it i don't want to touch it without touching iti don't want to feel it without feeling itso give it to me straig...
Ain't nobody like an Indian girl in Poetry
"My desi girl My desi girl Girl… girl… girl… girl My desi girl My desi girl Girl… girl… girl… girl Jhumka gira de Jo milale agar woh nazar se nazar mein taale Nachke dikade, Sabki dhadkan mei...
The common denominator in Poetry
I'm out here in the dark I've lost my way again And any way I turn, shoulders get turned away I don't know what I've done So I can't reach out because it feels like it's always me And ...
The ache between the bones in Book 1
Today.. for a variety of reasons I feel incredibly sad and deafeningly alone. And there's not much else I want to say about it
No Metaphors in Book 1
I wrote the the poem below on May 13th of this year. May 13th is a special day for me. I spent the day with B and she had a laugh attack that went on for minutes and minutes and minutes brought...
Specificity in Poetry
It's always something so random and so specific.. The curve behind your left knee... Your tailbone.. The way your fingernails glimmer after they're painted.. The way your belly button str...
Pulmonary Archery in Poetry
Pin it back and bleed it to the coreI am still and will be hereAwkward pauses on the lips of those wanting more So we tread on the grounds that we fearWe do it in our sleep,In our dreams, and ...
The dirty things we used to do.. Caught just behind my teeth.. I'm grinding.. It's stuck inside.. The way you used to dig into me.. The way I'd dig into you It hurt in ways that mattered...
Can you please just, like, stop... For just a second Stop being so fucking sexy when I want you to be sexy And so smart about things that I need you to be smart about Just stop... Bein...
Hey babe, it's true... You have flaws You can be selfish But I love you...You can be avoidant and you can shut me out But I love you You can be insecure and you can rant and rave But I love yo...
Stupid Boy in Poetry
"Stupid boy, no one expects anything from youYour whole life you'll be one step from the graveAnd there's nothing you can do to ever change it. You only have yourself to blame" I've liste...
To the places we fear the most in Poetry
I love and hate these at the same time because you write them about me But you don't talk to me about them.. This is me talking, this is me talking to youThis is me picking up the gaps in...
Things in the dark no one ever says in Poetry
I think weird things in the darkLike If I died right now You'd never know You'd think I ghosted you And you would hate me forever And I'd be the biggest asshole for ghosting you You tel...
Parts of a whole in Poetry
Your...Hair...Eyes..Lips...Tongue...Collarbones to shoulder bladesElbows...Fingertips to tattoos....Cleavage to nipples...Belly button..Pubic hair...Clit to cunt...Thighs...Knees...Cheeks to ...
She won't even... in Book 1
I really fucked up. I was manipulative... But it wasn't out of malice or control, it wasn't really conscious either. I wasn't trying to affect her independence... I was acting out of fear...
I fill these pages with thoughts of her Of her and IAnd other memories and hopesBut that's because I want to, She let's me in, And I listen to what she saysAnd what she tells me to do, 'Caus...
Have faith, have faith, you say There's nothing you can't do if you just have a little faith But I've been praying on my knees for so long the wounds no longer clot Just listen, you say. J...
1. I'm okay with how things are right now 2. Take your time 3. Nothing needs to be decided in this very moment 4. Just keep it simple Ok cool Noted
Today has been terrible... mentally and physically exhausting. It's like the worse I feel physically, the worse my mind gets...or the other way around. I know I'm the only one who can turn ...
I save the tiktoks instead of sending...I think I'm going slightly insane...Ill do those pictures if you send me the other pictures... Or if you my put your toes in my mouth at the end of the da...
So ignite these words And hold my heart And set it ablaze, and set it ablaze Cuz it burned for the days before How long does it last when you don't say the words and you do what you do...
If you lose your light I will sit with you in the dark I'll wrap my arm around your shoulder And I will sit for as long as it takesI don't care what happens in your dark Be scared, be anxious, ...
I want you on my bed...I want you on my lap...I want your lips on mine...I want your nails in my skin...I want your eyes on me...I want to feel the give and the take...I want to feel you wet and...
Brick by brick Build the wall up around my head Silence this voice And silence these thoughts Leave me here in the dark This fight is no longer worth it And I don't have the strength ...
I know what it looks like when someone in my situation gives up.. I've seen it. The pressure sores, edema, staying in the chair for 24 hours, not bathing for weeks, infection.. it's how my frie...
