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Today I talked to vocational rehab and while I don’t remember exactly everything that they said, I took notes and put them in that same folder as my resume. From what I remember from the convers...

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Content warning: (indirect brief mention of) suicidal ideation Getting the flow of words started is often the hardest part. The routine of journaling is starting to seemingly help more often n...

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A notice arrived in the mail from a lawyer selling their services whom I cannot afford - for a case I was not yet informed about. There is a certain irony in bad news traveling faster than the g...

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content warning: suicidal ideation If I want to kill myself so badly, why do I feel sad whenever I start to think about it or plan? Only some guesses might suffice. Dying means leaving those I ...

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Content warming: suicide I often find myself thinking maybe things will get better. they sometimes do for a short while; sometimes I’m surprised to find in a moment of distraction that I’m actual...

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(Beep, boop!) Just an outdated or obsolete one. I’m too slow and forget things. Can’t prioritize OR I accidentally get stuck on one task until it is finished OR I run out of processing power and ...

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Sometimes it feels like the liminal space you experience while still bleary-eyed and sleep deprived trying to wake up from a deep sleep… The kind of sleep so deep you end up accidentally sleeping...

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Content warning: suicide, drugs I’m having the KMS thoughts again lately (thoughts, just thoughts). A has my bolt. And the other gun is A’s now, and I sold my handgun as well… I still could use a...

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And freedom from a tempest storm Tossed me to your shore-strewn seas Whereafter I tumbled upon the beach Only to be washed away once more.

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