bees (he/him)
my thoughts are as volatile as alcohol and so is my existence the day I go under there wont even be a ripple on the pond to remind you of me
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A Beautiful Afternoon in My Life
I look outside and see sunlit green leaves silhouetted against a beautiful blue summer sky. They drift gently in the breeze, just beyond the window. And as they move, a quiet loneliness washes o...
Its my birthday in My Life
I can cry if I want to… so i treated my self to some shrooms… am i allowed to say it in here? is this beautiful, or am i tripping? its hard for me to tell what is real and what is not… ...
Useful Idiots in My Life
Modern pro-war propaganda is slick as hell. They don’t need posters of Uncle Sam anymore, they’ve got influencers, emotionally manipulative content, heroic narratives, and simplified good-vs-e...
Grace, I miss you. Are you okay? I ask this not out of habit, but from the deepest corners of my heart. Are you okay? The world feels vast without you, empty in all the wrong places. Wherever ...
Chasing the Demon in My Life
One day, the song that consumed your soul suddenly feels like nothing. Like all the magic bled out of it overnight. It’s not even a gradual fade, it’s just done. And that void, that restless, it...
This is what it all was for in My Life
This is what it all was for. Third door on the left, if you dare… This was ten years of my life. So hit me. Hard. Put me down on the curb. Make me need to get up again.
How Much Retro is Too Much? in My Life
How much retro is too much? For me, I crank the dial up until my eyes hurt, then turn it down a notch. That’s the sweet spot. Retro’s magic is in its excess, but the key is knowing when to stop....
Dear <bos>, Please accept this as my formal resignation. Thank you for the opportunities. Best, <me> … Send! It feels SOOO GOD DAMN GOOOOD, walking away. The horizon ahead is mine,...
Vois sur ton chemin (Techno Mix), on super top volume. Repeat. Friday night late. Stimming like my life depends on it. This is MY space, no interference. It’s a loop, a controlled substance that...
What’s on your mind? Or are you just in the mood for a little attention? Thinking of dropping some acid tomorrow, wanna join? A tempting invitation… I’d be all over it if I could, be your guide ...
Something Strange in My Life
Today, on my way home, I was on the train, listening to an audiobook, Way Back by Sara Cox. It’s an easy, no-frills read, the kind that doesn’t demand much focus. No complicated plots or endless...
Tonight, we had our neighbors over for dinner. They brought their little baby, who’s 8 months old now, so they couldn’t stay too late. But honestly, it didn’t matter. Just having them around and...
Today was different. I woke up to the familiar hum of the city outside my window. No grand revelations, no nothing. Just everyday things. And it was enough. This morning, I found myself in the ...
Echoes of Absence in My Life
Every time I come here, it looks like a wasteland… Just no BEETHOVEN anywhere around… no BEETHOVEN BEETHOVEN beethoven beethovn beethov ho ebt eeb ee e e am i the only one ? why is it so much ...
Moonlight sonata in My Life
This evening, I lay on the couch, listening to Beethoven’s Moonlight Sonata on my headphones, when God came down and touched me… And it felt so… incredibly good… so good but as i turn to you, m...
Where would you like to be in 5 years in My Life
Where would you like to be in 5 years from today? In five years, I hope to be here… And as I touch my face, my skin feels soft… The form and texture, I enjoy touching… Also, being touched, softl...
Placeholder in My Life
There is something I want to say, not now, not today… I just feel so far away, drifting of. The reoccurring memory of my youth, sun setting in the laboratory of my father, the afternoon sun refl...
Placeholder in My Life
There is something I want to say, not now, not today… I just feel so far away, drifting of. The reoccurring memory of my youth, sun setting in the laboratory of my father, the afternoon sun refl...
I miss you terribly, babba. My heart longs for you!
my best friend in My Life
A somber veil shrouds my heart, because for you my friend, our journey together ends here today. My heat is broken. You embraced life with such joy that I wanted nothing more than for you than t...
Getting there in My Life
Have not quit my job yet, still in negotiations. I am sad to have disappointed you, but even more so, to have disappointed myself :-(. But today, I feel so good! It feels like, it feels like I ...
A note to myself in My Life
This is 2024. It will be a good year. I am going to quit my job, and next time I am here, I will tell you that! Throwing all caution to the wind, hell yeah, Fuck all!!! This is 2024!!!!!
Dislectics untie in My Life
I am dislectic. Dislectics unite. Had no lerning disabilty so I flew under the radar for quite some time, I guess. But the signs are so overwelming, cant belive, I ignored them for so long. T...
Would you like to see a picture of me, declare with vigor: Aye! 10 Ayes and no Nays will render a picture of me, in vey short time. But gosh, do I even have 10 friends?
Here is what I have to say in My Life
Oppenheimer: 8 Barbie: 10!!! Barbenheimer: Hell Yeah!
