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March 10, 2018

9:48 in spectrality

i got the job offer!!!!!!!! i’d been interviewing with a company in austin over the past few weeks… drove up for the onsite on monday, then had one final phone screening on thursday. 75k + 10% qu...


March 03, 2018

12:02 in spectrality

up ‘early’, early for me. i was sleeping but dono got all squirmy this morning and it woke me up. i started feeling all anxious and my stomach was turning so i just got up. took a xanax because f...


February 08, 2018

1:35 in spectrality

gosh i miss her. it’s been hard, i’ve been weepy off and on. looking back through our old photos, printing out a bunch to hang– made a photo collage even. we went through so much life together, a...


February 06, 2018

12:49 in spectrality

saying goodbye to pepper was one of the hardest things i have had to do in a long time. i miss her so much and this place feels so empty! she was just such a good girl.. i don’t think she has eve...


February 02, 2018

2:00 in spectrality

i made pepper’s final vet appointment for monday… it’s just time, i was able to see it more clearly once i got back from a 5-day trip to florida (with my family and dono).... the changes are so g...


January 08, 2018

5:27 in spectrality

took pepper in for her follow-up at the vet. we had done the bloodwork about 3 weeks ago and it wasn’t definitive yet - BUN and creatinine just on the higher end of ‘normal’ - but she lost half a...


January 04, 2018

2:35 in spectrality

pepper is scaring me lately, almost every night for the past week she’s started meowing in the middle of the night. she has never acted like that before! she’s not a very “catlike” cat… just like...


January 03, 2018

2:21 in spectrality

work work work, money money money, things things things. boss of my boss pulled me aside for an impromptu 1-on-1 last night. basically asked what they need to do to keep me! i knew i was doing go...


December 23, 2017

3:02 in spectrality

i paid off that loan btw and it was fucking glorious. it feels like a weight has been lifted. i didn’t realize how much it sucked being under the control of those graduate student loans until the...


September 18, 2017

1:11 in spectrality

i’m so close to paying off my last graduate school student loan. $3500 to go and i think if i want to live on the edge, without as much of an emergency fund, i can pay it in two paychecks. man! i...


August 22, 2017

2:06 in spectrality

the biopsy confirmed my tumor is benign! fuck yeah. i guess i’m in the 1.4% with focal nodular hyperplasias that have a calcification (and are massively large). \o/ i had mentally prepared myself...


August 18, 2017

3:54 in spectrality

feeling much better after the biopsy. no pain and i can get around like normal now. just taking a brief moment to write that i won’t get to hear back from the results until monday when i meet wit...


August 15, 2017

4:30 in spectrality

had my biopsy this morning. all in all not too bad - my side is very tender/a bit painful now though, so i have to take it real easy. donovan took me in at 7:30 am (<3), i did intake and got a...


August 06, 2017

12:42 in spectrality

more livery things. i posted about my tumor on facebook which i think, in retrospect, was a mistake. i was pretty lighthearted about it, emphasizing there wasn’t any need to worry, but got so man...


July 20, 2017

2:15 in spectrality

went for the MRI on monday - i’d say it was a surreal experience being in that machine, with all the clicks and whirs, and the way the magnetism shook little segments of my body at a time - but i...


July 14, 2017

8:48 in spectrality

first, i declined interviewing in seattle then, i found out i have a 10 x 7 x 8 cm tumor in my liver?! freaking seriously. i guess i finally realized that maybe it was somewhat alarming and abno...


July 04, 2017

2:54 in spectrality

so… the dallas position was filled, but they are trying to get me to interview in seattle instead. there is a position that’s just like the one i applied for, but also requiring english/japanese ...


June 29, 2017

11:44 in spectrality

i applied to a place and while i await hearing back from tuesday’s phone screening i’m neeeeeeeeeeervous. the recruiter sent me a cryptic email yesterday not telling me if i passed the phone scre...


May 13, 2017

2:48 in spectrality

i’m starting to go ‘natural’ with many things. i just placed an order for a week’s worth of cloth pantiliners. eeee! the ones i have always used are just starting to wear on me, they feel so unna...


May 09, 2017

11:20 in spectrality

i got swiss chocolate almond coffee beans at HEB and they make my apartment smell so gooooooood. i’ve been thinking a lot about work lately. sometimes i think i am just not meant to work in a cor...


April 25, 2017

11:58 in spectrality

just feeling like i need to write more, but not having much of importance to say. the park next to my apartment switched to being a charmander nest last week. this weekend i walked around until ...


April 23, 2017

3:00 in spectrality

i know i write about money a lot for someone who hates it so much but I HAVE A LOT OF THOUGHTS ABOUT IT OKAY. i have not had a positive net worth ever in my adult life. i turned 18 and then took ...


April 20, 2017

2:12 in spectrality

last week we were kinda drunk and dono more or less asked me to move in with him? i mean not NOW but in half a year.. when my lease is up. i don’t see any reason not to, just trying to continue ...


March 20, 2017

3:34 in spectrality

up ‘late’, can’t fall back asleep. late is a relative term since on a normal day right about now (3:30 am) is when i’d get home from work. but this week i elected to do a 9-5 M-F training course ...


March 04, 2017

7:05 in spectrality

i may have drank too much coffee today. i’d say ‘this morning’ but i woke up at 3:30. i’ve thought often about treating what i’m pretty sure is adult ADD but in a lot of ways, i’m used to the way...


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