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5 days ago

1:58 in spectrality

getting close! yesterday dono and i drove to houston and i did my pre-op assessment, CT, MRI, EKG, blood testing, urinalysis, and 1st covid test. tomorrow we go back and do my 2nd covid test. if ...


July 24, 2020

10:11 in spectrality

it wasn’t worth it. i dropped the course. on wednesday we had our 3rd exam. now normally we meet M/W, 5:40-7:40 pm. the all-important syllabus (which as we saw last entry, he thought was infallib...


July 20, 2020

5:49 in spectrality

holy fuck. the professor i talked about in my last entry? he. was. a. jerk. and once he started being a jerk, he felt like he had to double down and keep being a jerk. he is an older white man an...


July 19, 2020

10:19 in spectrality

ok so august 3rd is the date. apparently the surgeon is going on vacation starting the 10th, so that settled it. lots to do… i emailed my summer class professors (you know, the ones i am taking j...


July 15, 2020

11:32 in spectrality

i’m good, tired. we made it to houston and back yesterday in the same day. at my appointment with the endocrinologist, (among other expected things) she also pointed out my T4 thyroid level is ve...


July 13, 2020

9:58 in spectrality

neurosurgeon appointments tomorrow in houston. dono’s driving over with me <3. for once, for the first time with any of this i think, he’s allowed to come in to the appointments with me, inste...


July 10, 2020

1:45 in spectrality

our small claims filing was accepted, so that’s a load off. now we just sit and wait… for justice. against landlords! i know we have only just bought our first ever house, but if, through the yea...


July 08, 2020

12:45 in spectrality

in not-health news our former landlord withheld our security deposit too long and THEN lied that he already sent it to try and cover up that it was late, and THEN “reissued” the check, which arri...


July 07, 2020

9:59 in spectrality

over! done! did it. all the way up until i was lying there in the bed and the anesthesiologist came in to chat with me, i wasn’t clear if i would be under full sedation. i was worried it might be...


July 06, 2020

9:47 in spectrality

almost there. appointment starts at 12:30pm. let’s get it over! can’t wait to eat real food again! dono’s driving me and getting us poke after <3 hope i just kinda sleep through it tbh. the ...


July 05, 2020

2:22 in spectrality

i slept ok but i still woke up uh, with stuff to do. my stomach feels stable now though. today is the last day of the prep, i can only drink clear liquids for the day and i’m supposed to drink a ...


July 05, 2020

12:01 in spectrality

this diary is just gonna turn into a health log for a while i fear. part of my pituitary tumor is that i have increased levels of growth hormone circulating throughout my body, and likely have f...


June 03, 2020

8:58 in spectrality

did my MRI yesterday [it was super uneventful, i had to pre-medicate because allergy to the contrast dye, which also meant i was super sleepy and indeed just straight-up fell asleep while it was ...


May 25, 2020

9:38 in spectrality

ok yeah so it’s a brain tumor. so that’s neat! i am not too worried but i am looking forward to the pain being gone. wooh. arthritis in every joint, all of the time. who knew the pituitary could ...


May 21, 2020

9:20 in spectrality

gonna sound wild but i think i have a brain tumor?! pending some testing which is gonna come back monday, but ya that’s the current thinking. it would explain a lot though.


November 04, 2019

12:23 in spectrality

no yeah i have more to say. i don’t know what i’m doing. like i don’t know if we are even compatible or not. we are about to enter our 4th year together and we just feel so at odds sometimes. lik...


November 04, 2019

9:29 in spectrality

i quit my job. i quit about a month ago actually. i’ve been enjoying the funemployment. yesterday i finally started looking for new jobs, i even applied to one yesterday - an SRE position at a g...


June 09, 2019

1:12 in spectrality

i want to quit my job. i shouldn’t, (the money is too good), i just want to. on the bright side i guess i can let myself get a little bit ‘loose’ (take break-walks more frequently, not be so para...


May 27, 2019

9:32 in spectrality

i have a confession to make. i’ve been at work today and yesterday, but dono’s sister reached out last minute for us to drive over to her place for a memorial day party. it was too late for me to...


May 26, 2019

10:50 in spectrality

i write. i’m ok. i started taking ballet classes, on a drop-in basis. that plus some exercises at home to strengthen my legs and feet. also, i went to go see giselle the other weekend - paid jus...


September 23, 2018

8:53 in spectrality

too much going on, always too much going on. i paid off my student loans last month. i keep waiting for that ‘feeling’ to hit me, the one where i suddenly feel all free and unbeholden, but it’s a...


April 09, 2018

2:33 in spectrality

“US psychologist Abraham Maslow said there was a five-tier hierarchy of human needs, each of which needed to be met before you could move on to worrying about other things, culminating in the hal...


April 08, 2018

6:49 in spectrality

japan went great– acchi kocchi, though! we were a bit overextended traveling around to so many different places. i’ll talk about it more later (or not if i forget). it was a good trip. i still un...


March 15, 2018

2:19 in spectrality

feeling guilty about work. i had applied for leveling (promotions) back before i knew i would get the new job. as a just-in-case sort of thing, right? like if i didn’t get the new job i wanted to...


March 10, 2018

9:48 in spectrality

i got the job offer!!!!!!!! i’d been interviewing with a company in austin over the past few weeks… drove up for the onsite on monday, then had one final phone screening on thursday. 75k + 10% qu...


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