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Husband/Father/Employee/Student is basically who I am in a nutshell. I guess that makes me 100/100/100/50% of an adult. I have had my depression conquered for years now, without meds, but I still have the spinning thoughts, ups and downs like anyone. This is where I'll spew them.

We will face the odds against us and run into the fear we run from.

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It’s been awhile since I’ve written anything. There has been so much going on and I haven’t been in front of my computer in any sort of leisurely capacity much in the last few weeks. The medical ...


I’m still in an odd in between with everything. I can’t fucking stand it. Everything is peaks and valleys. There have been moments when things are moving so much I want them to slow down. But, th...


I’ve been pondering spirituality the last few days. I’m not religious at all. I don’t believe in it, follow it, etc. Just not my thing. I don’t throw rocks at people that do, either. It’s just a ...


I seriously hate the in between. That space of waiting. Where you’re accomplishing and making strides, but now you have to sit and wait for the well to fill back up. It’s the worst place for me t...


I haven’t written in a while, so I figured I would get some thoughts out. Life has been fairly normal. Just life with nothing remarkable. I managed to get over all of my cold symptoms. I was coug...


So today marks 30 days since I cut back on my drinking. I’ve only had 1 beer (3 days after I decided to cut back) and 1 shot (bourbon diluted in a cup of hot tea). I say ‘cut back’, because I’m n...


I left work early yesterday, because the kiddo had a high fever. My wife managed to get an open appointment for early afternoon, so we could get her seen. It turns out she has a virus that’s been...


My lingering symptoms from my cold are keeping me up at night. I do fairly well during the day, but my coughing is killing me. I slept a little better last night. The coughing was less constant, ...


I’m beginning my first week back to work since being on orders. It always takes a bit to move from military back to civilian, as far as mindset, but it doesn’t help that half the barracks got sic...


My Friday starts out with the Washington Capitals being 2018 Stanley Cup Champions! Love it! Bringing a title back to the DC area. This region has been waiting a long time, especially for the Cap...


I’m officially down 22lbs on the year. I’m the lightest I’ve been in 2 years. I’m more than happy to be here and excited to see the progress, but I couldn’t help but chuckle when I saw the number...


It’s interesting the things you start to see happen when you choose to make changes to yourself. For a long time, I sort of felt like I was a player in the world around me. Making me, for the lac...


I’ve been kind of excited about writing as of late. I think it’s just because I want to get my active thoughts out on to paper. Or, in this case, typed out into a blank template online. I don’t r...


Funny, since my afternoon post yesterday, I’ve seen two others very similar to it. Seems like there is a little bit of a shift in how people feel about social media. I actually took it one step f...


I’ve been thinking a lot about making my world much smaller. I’ve given up social medial except for Instagram, mainly because I like being able to view and share pictures. I think it’s something ...


I’ve become aware of an underlying, but serious stressor I have with regard to how I look. My clothes, my body image, etc. I suppose to a point, it’s something that we all live with. I wasn’t 100...


Last night went really well with not having anything to drink. I set out to completely abstain, but heading to a venue that has amazing local beer, its really difficult to just not. I allowed mys...


This weekend I’ll be making my first stride in abstaining from alcohol. I don’t drink as often as I used to since my daughter was born. However, weekend was something that I always did. Friday an...


I have this weird memory that crops up from time to time about a situation with my 6th grade math teacher. He wasn’t a bad guy, but he had a tendency to choose his target kids to either praise or...


This week hasn’t been bad, but my mood has been absolutely garbage. I’m not sure what it is or why it is. I feel like I’m in this odd in between with a lot. I got this 3 or 4 week kick just previ...


I think I’ve written about being late bloomer before. I wasn’t a criminal level screw up in my early 20’s, because I was too lazy for it. I didn’t even do drugs as a screw up. I did drink a lot. ...


In the last week, I’ve fallen out of my hard working groove. I haven’t gotten lazy, but I’ve just had my dynamic changed a bit. On one side, I got through a big portion of my overall to-do list. ...


I was thinking the other day about situations that are sobering to our situations overall. Those situations where we look at where we are and think, “If I ever get out of this, I swear, I will ne...


I had something bigger that I wanted to write about today, but I’m honestly too tired to really get my brain to head in the right direction enough. I’m instead just focusing on my mood. I’m sort ...


Kicked off my mid-week with a 24-hour flu. Not sure where I would have picked it up, but man, it put me in the dirt. I’m completely past it now, but I’m still tired. It’s taking a little work to ...


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