After searching for multiple sites where I could freely voiced out my thoughts, I finally arrived here. I badly need to vent or to speak out what’s on my mind for these past few days. I couldn’t talk to my friend or my family as I don’t think it would really help me. After two weeks of social media break, I’ve come to a state where I’m already comfortable with peace and away from anxiety. However, I decided to come back and it was a really bad idea. I can see that all my peers are doing well in their lives right now and some of them already have a solid plan on what will they do in life. Meanwhile me, still rotting in our house, unemployed and nowhere to go and no plans. I don’t want to feel envious and be someone’s evil eye hahahahha. Hence, maybe I’ll log out or delete again all my social media and just talk here to improve myself. I am so damn miserable and I am contemplating whether I should just end my life. Why is it so damn hard to be broke and unprivileged…