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In the summer time
i love the snow... the more the merrier... snow baffles ambient noise... makes things quieter... snow makes things brighter... the night is no longer so terribly dark and alone... snow hid...
why do fools fall in love
the flesh is spongy and bruised... the spirit is so far beyond willing it clings to things like an abandoned dog... i know its futile... i know its only for the living... and yet, i am so v...
day after day
its becoming harder and harder to be awake... my doctor told me that 50% of people who have amputations die within 2 years of the amputation... wouldn't it be lovely?
american pie
My day began like any other. The pressure on my heart was so great, I did nothing but lay in bed for a half an hour before I tried to stand. Checking the bank, I found out that a car wash in ...
sun down
there are no great second acts in life...
et tu la monde
some days green... some days blue... some days grey... most days you... demons etch your name in my skin... dragging daggers across my back... my subconscious kicking the back of my brain....
sorry seems to be the hardest word
i said something meant to be kind... if only life came with rewind... i should know better than to be a fool... i was, am and always will be... wrong...
sailing
On July 15 2022 I drowned… The mind does strange things when you drown. You hit the water frantic, frightened. Your mind tells you that you can make it, that theres a way out of this. You b...
little lies
i'm okay... i'll be okay... i've been productive today... i'm fine... i'm learning to move on... why? why? i'll be alright without you...
rocky mountain high
the snow is falling... bury my dreams and aspirations... winters blanket soft like tombs... wont you set me free... time for dino nuggets i suppose...
kings and queens and guillotines
Once upon a time, long ago, in a valley far from here, there lived a poor prince. The prince lived in a small castle with a small mote on a small plot of land in the center of his village and ...
life could be a dream...
5:41 am... some mistake my melancholy for despair... the source is anxiety... something as simple as sleep... gets complicated when she steps on stage... the dead cannot speak to the living...
this old house
i've been thinking on this for some time... my situation is as such that if i were to die in my sleep... it would take up to one week before anyone would know i'm gone... its kinda nuts when ...
lifes been good to me so far
my doctor told me that 50% of all people who get an amputation die within 2 years... i feel horrible...
day after day
everything bruises my will... movies, tv, rain, food... waking, sleeping... i pray that this will be my last year... let my epitaph read... Finally...
i cant stop the rain
we are looking at the 4th year of her being dead... i have no plans on acting on this but it's raining out... i cant see very well through all the tears and i have to say i no longer wish to ...
famous final scene
if i were to create my own epitaph it would be Thank god its finally over...
hot rod lincoln
why do chicken coops have 2 doors? if they had 4 doors they would be chicken sedans.
all across the universe
The world spins endlessly, drifting throughout the void of space. Clinging to its back a tiny little thing, useless and bereaved. It has watched the sun and moon count sixty years and, in tha...
yesterday
one of you left me a note saying sorry, i believe it was Jesus i'm sorry... my reply was "no worries... we lose everyone in the end, i just wish i was on the guest list..." it may sound a lit...
LONG AND WINDING ROAD
8 years ago it all began... my mother died in 2018... my father died in 2018... my mother in law died in 2020... my father in law died in 2020... my wife died in 2022... i haven't had the ...
question
if the earth is spinning at a gozillian miles an hour, and i jump in the air, why do i land in same spot i jumped from?
wish
I cant make a memory in shades of grey… I cant shine like the sun at the end of the day… Why have the bells of St. Mary’s rung… Was it the needs of the many or the needs of the one… Oh...
silent night
one night or day... one breath away... no ones gonna know i'm gone... with the passing of the night... black turning into light... or maybe with the slaughter of the dawn... pretty words s...
jinglebell rock
this will be the 4th christmas i will spend alone... this time i will be flat broke... no food... no gas... nothing... i miss her so much...
Book Description
lets see how long this lasts....
