i am a student studying for exams as any student would. In the past few days I’ve felt like i am not sufficient enough for my parents as they want me to be, especially my dad . I’ve always been a great student growing up and getting to hear i’m not enough for them and not being appreciated enough just get into me .
i really want to impress them and be close to them and tell them how i really feel but how do i do it? i just want to vent in
how do i decide my whole life? i have no idea!! what to do? how come everything in India depends only on a single paper and some caste- based believes? this is so new to me! and i want them to know that.
its not like i am failing in stuff but he makes me feel like it , as if i had done something so wrong! How do i study with all these thoughts in my head? how do i find my escape? my happy place?
how do i figure things out?
for as long as i can remember i’ve never been appreciated in my life from my dad
i painted? “wasting your time”
got 1st place in yoga? ” you still have no stamina”
got 92% in boards ? “took the only device i used .my ipad from me cuz i was not doing enough”
put on some new clothes? “this styling won’t get you anywhere if you think you’re so pretty”
how do i handle my things the way i want them to be?
i love him i want him to know that i am suffering from the stuff he says it isn’t like he doesn’t care he does care but how come he is not even able to show it just one single time?
i really want him to understand me better and i hope i become a person he wants to see in me
i found this today and i think if my own friends can’t help me out some amazing people would!
counting on you guys :)