sometimes I feel annoyed when my mom asks me favours
why don’t you just learn to use a computer mom? it’s so easy, much easier than going to the bank
I’ve yelled at her for it a few times.

I should stop doing that. she is never really going to be very good at computers, at her age, and she doesn’t really want to be. she raised me so she wouldn’t have to be, and now I am telling her I don’t want to do it for her

why, because I am too busy, my time is too valuable to do small things for her?

wait, what?

she is the reason I did anything, for so many years, and why I became anything, or why I became important enough to even have such thoughts

no, nothing is more important than her. nothing is more important than even the most trivial things she needs, if she needs them, when she needs them, if there is no other choice.

I should say nothing but yes. I should be nothing but grateful. I am so lucky to be able to have this time to serve my mother, so many people will never have a parent so worthy, or won’t have the time to be there for them. I am, and I must avail myself of this blessing.

nothing too big, nothing too small, to do for her. must not forget.