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Everything's a blur.
So my baby and I won't have the funds to pay for the jeep to be registered or insured until the first weekend of May. So I very bluntly told my dad that we MUST have the jeep by then and no later...
Hello.
So I started my day out yesterday afternoon burning my boob. Thank god it was nothing serious. Strangest thing though, I am allergic to adhesive off of medical tape or even band aids for that mat...
Frustrated
So I have a mental illness and the clinic I am part of don't give a damn about me. The office administrator basically threatened to close my case even though my treatment plan is good for six mon...
Pic of me and Sweet Pea :3
Sweet Pea was super sleepy, as you can tell. Here she was about 4 or 5 weeks old...I'm not quite sure. This will be the only picture I will post of me so enjoy.
Hello peoples :-)
I am doing alright. I gotta get back into the swing of regularly going back to Grandlake clinic rolls eyes. After they treated me the way they did its a matter of biting my tongue and only disag...
Not a happy camper...
So as of late I have been very upset and severely pissed off at my father. A little over a year ago now he has been promising me this jeep that he is supposedly willing to give me. Last winter th...
Update on stuff.
So Andy picked up yesterday and will pick up next Wednesday and Thursday as well meaning he only gets next Tuesday off again. I miss him terribly when he's working but seems like these days that ...
Positive Ramblings.
So things are continuing to look up for us. My baby might be switching from 2nd shift to first shift. They also said that he will be moving up from his position he is now to possible head cook. Y...
Whew!
Trying to get on sooner care...you know that music you hear when they put you on hold to transfer you to some idiot who isn't really educated enough to answer your question? Well anyhow the music...
Hello again.
Well things continue to look up. Andy's boss Teresa loves him and is scared out of her wits that he is going to quit (which he won't). He is getting a raise in 60 days instead of 90 days. Whoopee...
Hello everybody. :)
Our puppies are sleeping and playing in the living room. I introduced them to a pan of Luke warm water. I was playing with Trixie, Luna, Lola and Pee wee. I put there toys in my mouth and was pla...
Life for me.
I am finally realizing that nothing is truly perfect in this world...Finally I get the chance to settle down and be the lady I always wanted to be. My biological dad has a girlfriend now. They ar...
Just checking in
So lots of planning and activities are going on. We have grand plans for our house. The paint ideas are warm colors like, a darkish cranberry red in the kitchen, maybe a peachy/mango in the liv...
Introduction of my second family.
Well on a good note my man got a new job today as a cook at a nursing home. Eager to wait for his arrival to hear all about his day. Anyhow, I met him through his ex wife. A year later after visi...
Book Description
It’s going to be super long but here goes nothing.
For the majority of my life I have been searching for my soulmate, my purpose in life, and filling that “empty spot” I have felt the majority of my life. I don’t have many people I would even consider friends. I have learned to keep quite, enjoy and cherish your loved ones. Less drama, heartbreak, and distractions. Good for me. I have been through a lot in my childhood and now I’m trying my hardest to enjoy, be happy, and over all just make it all work.
I love my man very much! Funny how I met him but that’s another story for a different day. Him as well as his mother and father have seriously helped open my eyes to things, encourage me to be stronger & more independent, and are doing some serious work to overall straighten me out from the place I used to call “home”. They all fill my empty, dead space I have been searching for. I love them with my whole heart even more than my biological family and I hope they feel the same about me.
My biological family is crazy to say the least. chuckles Oh the stuff I have been through with them. My father is a slobbering alcoholic with extreme anxiety and being a self absorbed asshole. Oh and he’s a conspiracy freak who watches videos and researches. Supposedly he doesn’t believe it, it’s just theory. In reality he does and is absolutely outraged and scared of the government, for reasons I am not sure of. Basically how he feels about me is I have a vagina so he will help me when he feels like it but I’m not considered important anymore......but he still manages to love me, somehow. My mother is a Schitzophernic/ Bipolar and her case is severe where my is extremely mild…more mood swings for me. When she’s not with it she is absolutely insane. Every belief, idea or even thought is fantasy but dammit she believes it to be true. She gets physically violent and mentally she will bring you down somehow. Our personalities are so different that we always clashed, butt heads, and disagreed on EVERYTHING. I think that’s another reason why I was a victim to her in her fantasy world. Jealous of me for the relationship she never had with my dad that I did which again doesn’t make sense to this day. She never knew how to act as a role model, or even what I consider a somewhat decent parent. Always off in her own world.
Sadly my older brother and I have grown up with her illness the longest. I have to say living in as much chaos and being in a unstable house for that matter we make the best we can out of our lives. He raised me from baby until a little over a year ago. Basically when we were wee tiny little things our parents neglected us for drugs. So he kept me away from it and took care of me. He is one of the men that is the closest father figure/brother/best friends I have got. I trust him with anything and everything. Well more about him… Sadly he’s beginning the world as an alcoholic and going to college to try and be a computer scientist. He is Schizophrenic because he has voiced to me seeing several things that weren’t really there. By the way he thinks and tries to socialize I’m beginning to think he has a form of autism but don’t know what kind. Anyhow I love him and he’s taught me a lot in my life.
The lil bro is a flat out mess. Poor boy was never really disciplined correctly. So he is growing up to think I get what I want and eat whatever I think taste good attitude. He has a temper and can get physical if things don’t go the way he has planned. Big bro and I have kept him away from my mothers illness as much as possible while she still lived with us. Parents divorced in January or February of 2011. It was a family decision that we had to make. Things were getting WAY out of hand. But she’s now on the right medication that best suits her needs.
I think that sums everything up as nicely as it can possibly get. I will be talking more about my boyfriend and his parents in my diaries because I live with them now. And I will end this diary by giving you every bodies name that I talked about today in my diary so please try to keep up. Lol (Famous words my bf’s mom is known for saying)
My loving boyfriend is Andrew but I like to call him Andy for short.
His mother is Katie which I admire so much.
His father is Les and he’s the other man I consider as a father figure.
My biological father is Richard.
My biological mother is Debbie.
My older brother is Robert.
My lil Brother is David.
Goodnight and thanks for reading. :-)
