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Capstone presentation: Check Senior portfolio presentation: Check Graduation? Seventeen days I feel myself retreating into myself (like I’m prone to do) during this final chapter. I hear the cloc...

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Most days, the only time I get a moment of peace is walking home from the office to my apartment, blasting music (either Panic! At The Disco or Hamilton because what else) and taking deep breaths...

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I really have to try to not be overwhelmed by how fast time goes and how desperately I wish I enjoyed things more when I had the chance. Sometimes I have jolts of, “wait, how did I get here?!” b...

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hello. it’s me. in the two months since we spoke, i survived my craziest and most stressful semester ever (wrote & researched an entire PR plan for my capstone, passed all my classes, didn’t...

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i’m so, so overwhelmed. it’s november. i can’t focus on my future — which is what i need to be doing — because i can only see the swamp i’m standing in. between massive projects, trying to pass ...

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“so make it a point to say you miss me tell all of your friends of the boy from where your accent comes oh, won’t you hold it against me for knowing the words what to say to make your heart beat ...

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11:40 p.m. My new roommates and I went out to dinner for the first time – and, like, it wasn’t that much fun. They aren’t the people I’d choose to hang out with on a regular basis and here I am l...

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I always seem to have quite the disappearing act, don’t I? I was in the process of writing a ‘welcome back from your editor in chief’ letter for the next issue, when I got stuck – which caused me...

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March has been overwhelming and I always wonder if just SDSU is the only school that decided to plan everything in March. I kept thinking I just needed to survive the month because that’s always ...

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i looked at your facebook again and i think you’re a liar i think everything between us wasn’t what i thought it was i am so much happier without you i am so much better off without you that’s ...

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i don’t miss you anymore i don’t even know what you’re up to i blocked you from my facebook feed (even though i regularly stalk your profile) and i click through your pictures and i can’t help bu...

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I’m going through things and I’m barely half-assing them. By things, I mean school. I just can’t bring myself to care about upcoming midterms and it makes me feel guilty. But like, I’ve reached a...

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Yesterday, I watched Disney movies all day while it poured in San Diego and today, my roommate and I ditched all our classes and responsibilities to get brunch and mimosas and it was a pretty fu...

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-complaining to my best friend about how I’m single and how I don’t want to talk to anyone and her saying I need to put myself out there and me saying or nah -going grocery shopping and buying lo...

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I guess it’s always Mumford & Sons, huh? Valentine’s Day is about the world’s three most important things: chocolate, pink and sparkles. I’ve decided to get over all the pressures of this h...

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I had lunch with Patrick yesterday. and lunch turned into coffee and coffee turned into walking around Old Town. and through it all, we talked. We talked a lot. Going into it, I was feeling li...

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Are we in the clear yet? Good. Ended up in a conversation on the phone with Patrick. He apologized and recognized that he had messed up and I guess things are better than they were? I don’t know...

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I’m bundled up in a SDSU sweater, scarf and slipper socks. I love this cold(er) weather and I might be overcompensating. The chill in the air is making me nostalgic for so much, though. Driving ...

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Last fall, we brunched at a trendy place in Hillcrest in matching sweaters. Sat at the bar, looking outside to the cloudy sky and fashionably clad passer-bys. Last fall, we drank Starbucks–me, a...

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I’ve taken down the pictures of you and I taped to my wall. I asked if you wanted our shared llama, named Karl, or if I should donate him to the Goodwill (You said you wanted him, please). I sai...

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I keep thinking your going to call me and say you miss me, say you really do care about me and that you’re sorry for making me think otherwise. Except you didn’t even do that while we were togeth...

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Update: I called him, and he called me back after he got off work. He said he wasn’t seeing anyone while he was with me. Our conversation lasted 3 minutes. That’s it, then.

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I need to listen to “we are beautiful, we are doomed” by los campesinos! on repeat but the song also makes me want to throw things. I’m so tired of being told I’m going to have other adventures, ...

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I keep checking your Tumblr to see if you’ve written any vague posts about me. I keep opening your chat window on Facebook, just to stare at the “Seen at 12:38” underneath the last thing I wrote ...

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Patrick and I broke up. His feelings for me “weren’t enough to cut it.” He didn’t want to try anymore. I told him we can’t be friends and that I won’t be contacting him. Its strange that he’s b...

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