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then who?
F continues to insist, "I am not that man anymore and I will not abuse you or take advantage of you." And if that could only be true...it would be my lifelong dream come true. He talked about how...
last night
Before falling asleep, had a deep conversation with hubby..He kept asking me, "don't you remember what he's done to you? Because I can NEVER forget the condition you were in when you came back fr...
oh the stress
Try juggling an irate husband and a hair-trigger tempered lover sometime and see how that works for ya. Cell phone bill came...and of course all the calls from Himself used up most of the minute...
talking...
My boy sure loves to talk. We were on the phone for literally hours today. Three particular (sexual) remarks that stood out : that he really wanted to come be with me today: that his first thoug...
Morning conversation
Just got off the phone from first morning conversation with F. He called me bad for yesterday, because I answered the phone in front of Hub. Joked, "so what time am I coming there?" I said when...
another snow day...
So of course, because F suspects husband didn't go to work, he starts in with text messages.. Which started my day off just wonderfully. Then because I didn't answer said text messages, he called...
bad dream.. edited
Woke up about an hour ago from a bad dream ...not too clear, but it was about F and I was crying, or attempting to, but couldn't get out any tears. Haven't heard from him in about 3 days...and to...
an old joke....
My husband used to "tease" me regarding F...asking me, "do you ever wish F could become human?" and I would answer 'all the time'. While I would love, with all my heart to believe that has happen...
Yesterday
F and I spent a good portion of the day on the phone together yesterday. Aside from the time I was out with my hairdresser for coffee and a "chat". It is truly amazing the "insight" she has into...
This morning....
have probably spent an hour on the phone with him already, on and off. I had sent an email, teasingly, last night, asking how come I've never been able to make him crawl for me? He answered this...
Absolutely mind blowing conversation
He finally called, "Hey Needy Girl" which led into this incredible conversation, about why I can never get the upper hand...why I've never been able to make him "crawl" as he put it....because he...
unbelievable....
So, since I'd heard NOTHING in days, other than a stupid email from Sunday, saying something like, "old F is back, nope, gone again. Clone time!" I let things be, even though I started to feel m...
Trying to process
I have actually been keeping my "paper" diary for the first time in over five years. Have kept up a bit more there. F and I haven't "spoken" other than in daily emails. I finally accused him of h...
and the minuses....
Of which there are ALOT! He started in last night, around ten pm with emails: "I just realized something. He is a retirement age and he will be home with you 24 7 soon. " Followed by: "Then you...
the pluses...
He says that my screennames in some form or another are his passwords. He talked about when we were trying to get pregnant..saying what did I think that meant...wanting me to go meet his sister.....
old behaviors...
So.. He called quite a bit last week, after our day together. Said he was "glad" I'd told hubby we'd met. But he has started in slightly with the wanting to piss hubby off remarks and behavior. ...
First entry- Sure...just when I have something to write about..
O.D. is disappearing! To backtrack slightly, I had gotten an email on Sunday, after the Big Annual Train show where I sometimes have run into F. It was from him, asking if my email addresses we...
