Today is a bad day. Loss and grief consume my entire being. In a short amount of time I’ve had my Mom pass, My Nana pass, had falling outs with pretty much my entire family, and I was badly deceived and hurt through it all, been through a divorce, had my entire life ruined by someone who claimed to love me, lost a job, home, everything…lost my relationship with my brother, and the lost just goes on and on …
Why? What is the point? What have I done in life that has been so bad? Ive been forced to do everything when fir 16 years I wasn’t allowed to do nothing!! I’m overwhelmed, lost, hurt, exhausted, extremely depressed and quite literally have no one. My Dad left when I was 7 and my step Dad hasn’t bothered to step up at all. Im sure he could care less if I talk to him or not. My life went from
Holding it together to it falling like dominos. One thing after the next. Now I’m a single Mom
To 3 kids at 40. Doing everything by myself. I’m proud… yes I am but I am so exhausted, Burt out, emotionally just done with life. Idk. Something has gotta give. Something has got to change. I’m trying so hard. Went back to school and now work in healthcare, averaged a 91 in my class. I was never allowed to do that when I was married. I’ve gone through so much. Yes I’m proud but it’s not been easy and it’s still not. Every day is a struggle and every day is something new. I’m writing this in hopes that life with change for the better. I’m putting it out there in hopes that the universe will hear me. See me and bring me joy and happiness because my heart so desperately needs it. I need to feel beautiful again, happy, and free with no financial worries. Please hear me …