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8-21
Today I talked to vocational rehab and while I don’t remember exactly everything that they said, I took notes and put them in that same folder as my resume. From what I remember from the convers...
8-20
Content warning: (indirect brief mention of) suicidal ideation Getting the flow of words started is often the hardest part. The routine of journaling is starting to seemingly help more often n...
8-12
A notice arrived in the mail from a lawyer selling their services whom I cannot afford - for a case I was not yet informed about. There is a certain irony in bad news traveling faster than the g...
8-10 evening
content warning: suicidal ideation If I want to kill myself so badly, why do I feel sad whenever I start to think about it or plan? Only some guesses might suffice. Dying means leaving those I ...
8-10
Content warming: suicide I often find myself thinking maybe things will get better. they sometimes do for a short while; sometimes I’m surprised to find in a moment of distraction that I’m actual...
Sometimes I feel like a robot.
(Beep, boop!) Just an outdated or obsolete one. I’m too slow and forget things. Can’t prioritize OR I accidentally get stuck on one task until it is finished OR I run out of processing power and ...
7-15
Sometimes it feels like the liminal space you experience while still bleary-eyed and sleep deprived trying to wake up from a deep sleep… The kind of sleep so deep you end up accidentally sleeping...
Thoughts, just thoughts
Content warning: suicide, drugs I’m having the KMS thoughts again lately (thoughts, just thoughts). A has my bolt. And the other gun is A’s now, and I sold my handgun as well… I still could use a...
Castaway
And freedom from a tempest storm Tossed me to your shore-strewn seas Whereafter I tumbled upon the beach Only to be washed away once more.
Book Description
Open diary of a trans woman around mid 30’s. I have dealt with mental health issues much of my life so maybe some of these might be, hah… a little crazy. Topics may include suicide, anxiety, and generally some queer stuff. I may tend to overthink and ramble or digress often but I’ll try to write at least in a somewhat readable format lol.
