this is so random but i feel really affected by it i need to write it out to let everything go. so theres this upcoming performance my school has and my cca is performing. however since the stage is too small only selected people could go. obviously i wanted to join everyone. others were doing perfectly while me? i was making so so many mistakes it made me want to dakara motto and disappear into the black hole. due to the mistakes i made i didnt get into the performance group. not surprised just disappointed. but i mean what can i do? whats done is done and im just typing this out to.. let my emotions out. i have been thinking about this for the past two hours and my heart feels uneasy