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Grade 4
My grade four teacher was also my sunday school teacher. I got a twenty minute detention for something and didn't show up. The next day my name was on the blackboard with 40 written beside it. Th...
bedtime and sleeping
I hate nighttime. specifically going to sleep. There hasn't been a night where I haven't suffered nightmares. I sometimes take sleeping pills to help me sleep. I don't like to depend on them. Us...
My teenage years as a girl
I spent fours years as a girl. Seriously. I was sent to an institution for emotionally disabled children and lived with 120 other kids. Somebody planted girls clothes under my mattress and as pun...
Epilepsy
I had epilepsy as a child. I do not remember ever having a seizure but I was on medication from my first family until I was at the institution for the emotionally disturbed children. Mysoline and...
smoking
I used to smoke. I actually started smoking in a group home. where cigarettes were freely given out. At one point in time I was at almost 2 packs a day. I like smoking pipes. but they require too...
signs
I saw the movie signs with Mel Gibson. We traveled to seattle because my wife was maid of honor at a friends wedding. We all went to this movie. Really stupid movie. BUT in the previews there w...
alphabet soup of my mind.
I have complex PTSD, DID, GID and am altogether crazy. My wife has BA in psychology, BA in social work MSW is an RSW. Her letters mean that we can afford counseling to help get rid of my letters....
flashback
I'm screaming in my mind. I can't do anything but. The chains and cuffs are so tight I hurt bad. The pain is so much. I'm going to die. I'm going to bleed to death and I can't do anything. I can'...
married
I married a social worker. Who would have thunk that would ever be possible. My wife is a wonderful woman. She has a heart of compassion for people. So totally different from my experience growi...
wedding
Our wedding was held on a grassy mountain in the heart of the city. It was a beautiful summer day and two bald eagles soared overhead the entire time. We had personalized bottles of bubbles hande...
fostercare
I grew up in fostercare as a permanent ward of the government until my 18th birthday. A lot of the kids I grew up with would continue to be wards of the government past that as so many of them s...
moving
I run a moving company. One truck with two employees. It's not going to make me rich but I enjoy it. Speaking of rich. Money has never been an importance to me. I could always use more money. I...
school
I never went far in school. I hated school. I hated the teachers(there were two I liked) and the kids hated me. I passed Grade 5 but never got farther than that. You can't go to school as a runaw...
Book Description
Noun ; a small part, piece, or thing
This is a collection of thoughts, experiences, and stories of my life. THEY ARE FACTUAL, but are not chronological. They encompass the worst and the best. Some experiences will be told in snippets. I will change names and keep locations hidden to protect my privacy and those who may be guilty of causing me harm of which there were many.
Do not judge me by my words. I am not ashamed of my past, present or future. My deeds or choices that I have made or that were forced upon me have made me who I am be it better or worse.
This is not the whole story. Eventually enough will be told to be able to piece my life together. For now it like me is fragmented.
