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All knowing.
I keep hearing people say that I'm so go-with-the-flow... In my opinion, that's far from true. I dislike the unknown. I hate surprises. I like to know the ending first. If someone won't tell me ...
Non-depressing feeling.
Feels great. Very productive day. Accomplished almost everything in one day that I was worried I wouldn't in two days. Makes me feel like I can do this. I'm going to make this single mom/co-par...
Oh, boy. Where do you begin?
Judgement. Opinions. Everyone has problems. Everyone has skeletons. Everyone makes mistakes. Unfortunately, everyone also has their opinions, too. I had an affair, true. Some people are a...
If it mattered..
I would like to say all kind of things to you, if it mattered. Usually I have a hard time finding words.. With you, I would have no trouble. It doesn't matter. Nothing does. I fear that I'm stu...
Is this what crazy looks like?
I'm losing my mind. Literally. And it feels like everyone is just watching me flail about. I need to reset, to recharge. As of lately, I feel like I'm watching my life, but I have no control. I...
Angry words.
Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. I'm in a mood. The kind of mood where you want to fucking throw shit and scream. I'm fucking hormonal and tired of everyone and their shit. I'm tired of my hours being cut, ...
"I want you to feel my pain."
He says. You want me to feel alone. You want me to feel ignored. You want me to question where I stand with you and constantly worry. You want me to feel unloved. Yep. Been there. Since he has ...
It just got real.
I got caught. It was a relief. I feel this is all so surreal. I knew that it would happen. The truth always comes out in the end.. But during these past months, I was going through the motions....
A collision of worlds..
Life is funny. It has a way of shaking youur core. It is something literally everyone is trying to figure out, and yet do any of us have any clue what we are fucking doing? I'm so confused. Like...
New job (fingers crossed)
Finished school. Going to get my test date tomorrow. I went to the new nursing home's job fair. Orientation is next month. I'll have to do the two job thing for a bit. Three 12 hour shifts at ...
Happiness is overrated.
Something always comes along to ruin every good moment.. That's life... I don't want to be around when that happens. My intuition us telling me to do what I do best, run. I think it's best in...
Hear the boom boom boom of your heart...
Sigh.. I'm addicted.. Hook, line, and sinker. I know this good feeling will be abruptly interrupted though. One step forward, two steps back.. Grr. Feelings..
I hate my job!
Mostly because it doesn't pay, management sucks, and the people I work with do too! Ugh subway. I finished school on Thursday. Ready to dive into the nursing world. Going to a job fair on Wedn...
You're worth it.
The good, happy times are worth it.. <3
You..
How do you get to me so badly? How do I get over that? You push me away. You're mean to me. You ignore me. Yet, here we are. We're still doing this. I know you care... Ugh. You make me feel so...
This just won't do.
I don't think I'm sold on prosebox. I mean I like the site. It's easy to use. I like the look... There was just a crowd at OD. A bond that this place just doesn't have. I'm grateful for my OD f...
What I forgot to say..
I was suppose to quit you. I find that hard to do. Always have. Everyone's definition of “wrong" varies. What is wrong to you is my normal. I know and am fully aware of what people would say.....
To be completely honest..
Which I can't! That has always bothered me. To get everything off my chest and to hear honest feedback would be great! Though, I'd get a lot of shit talk, I'm sure! I'm not feeling as awesome...
Bringing sexy back
I'm not a super sexual being.. But the best way to get your confidence back is to love yourself. I took pictures, for the very first time, shirtless, in the mirror.. I'm so happy with what I se...
You're gonna regret this..
I'm all about no regrets. It's important to me. Well, I know I'll regret this one. I haven't experienced heart ache in a long time. I haven't cared enough to feel heart ache. I'm happy to know ...
Moving on is hard to do.
Living with regrets. Wondering what could have been.. Having ultimate faith you made the right decision. Realizing what you did wrong. Where you went wrong. It's hard knowing you don't bring th...
Ugh
You can't make someone love you... You can only love them and hope they'll love you back.
My own worst enemy..
I'm in a dark place, and I've made quite the mess... No one the blame but myself. I need to start making better decisions.. I really need to start listening to my intuition more.
My sorrow is heavy.
I think I've made the wrong decision. I can't go back, and I can't change what I've done. I hate having regrets. I'll live with this forever. I'll live with it alone, too. Maybe alone is how ...
Shit got real.
I know it's been quite some time since I've been on here... Things have just gotten crazy in my life. I have a scary decision to make, and not a lot of time to do it. It's a decision that will ...
