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The ex...
Omg. Can a lady just vent right quick!? I’m over it. He has NOTHING to say to me unless a) he’s with an audience/girlfriend and and wants to call to start shit and make me look bad, or b) when hi...
If anyone could find it in
Their hearts… I’m close to having my utilities shut off, my car was repossessed, and we just aren’t doing so well. I’m close to losing my jobs because I don’t have child care or a reliable babysi...
Fuck my life even more.
Got fired from my second job today. I was literally 8 minutes late. My clients daughter left at 9. My boss came in a quarter to 1 with a replacement and said the daughter no longer wants me there...
fuck my fucking life
Fuck. So. My life has me down today. Defeated by life. My marriage is over. I mean its been over for a while… But its for real over. He’s moved on. He’s got the papers… I didn’t think I’d be sad...
Rainbows and butterflies.
Oh, today has been a sad day. I’m not on here hardly anymore. My life is messy though. Nothing new there lol. I got my own place! With a roommate. She was the first friend I made upon moving to O...
Lightbulb.
I’m a terrible person. The dating world sucks. Like SUCKS. I don’t want a relationship. I don’t want labels. I don’t want expectations. I don’t want a random hookup. I do however want all the per...
All smiles.
Life is pretty good. I work non stop and have no money still lol… But life is okay. I have plenty of reasons to smile :) I’m worried however that I’m putting my happiness in the wrong places.
Conflict is in the air.
I’m surrounded by conflict. At some point you have to ask yourself what can you do to change it? I know leaving my job will cut down on it. I put my two weeks notice in, I have another job, and m...
Remind yourself...
That everything will be okay. Everyday. All you can do is be a better person than you were yesterday. And smile. It looks good on you :) Love yourself. And kickass!
Sometimes..
You just have to freak out. I’ve found that a good cry is the best cure to sadness. But I’ve known that for a while. As a teen, I’d watch sad movies to release the tears. Always worked for me an...
i miss
Happiness. Feeling wanted. Feeling loved. I’ve got to learn how to be okay without that stuff… Because it’s killing me.
Hi, I'm Sarah...
And I am a sad, pathetic mess. I have been real down in the dumps. I hate getting like that. So often I try to understand my feelings in hopes of making them go away… Doesn’t really work. Karma...
Mind everywhere..
I’ve been so busy. I’m working at the nursing home now. I absolutely love it!! My residents are great. The people I work with are petty and catty, but they care about their job and the resident...
If I wrote you a love song...
..and sang it to you everyday, would it make you wanna stay? How can you love and hate one person so much? Ugh!
Naive girl.
I want to be loveable for something other than sex. I really thought it was gonna be Steve. I really, really did. He always seemed to love me so much despite whatever we went through. Now all I ...
Meh.
Sums up how I feel… About everything!
Is it so wrong?
This emotional roller coaster ride has got to stop now. I keep screaming, “Stop!” The ride keeps fucking going. Whoever is calling the shots around here is a real dick. Is it so wrong that I wan...
Don't try to get me.
I’m a mother. I’m a sister. I’m a daughter. I’m a friend. I’m all of those things. But.. I’m fucked up. Don’t try to figure me out. I’m almost past the point of wanting to be understood. People...
Can this be over already?
Hypocrite. I’ve been verbally abused by him for months now. Today alone I was called a slut, trash, uneducated, and a dumbass! I told him that it hurt he went out and got a place without letting ...
Up, up, and away..
No matter how high I manage to fly, the sadness always finds me. The pills were suppose to make me happy.. At least I feel numb. I’m sad, but no more tears will come. I try forcing myself to cry...
No apple for you, lady!
Noah’s teacher is currently sitting pretty at the top of my shit list. This whole having kids in school is still so new to me… But having Noah as one of those kids is harder! I love that kid, don...
Change of perspective.
“You can not solve a problem with the same mind that created it.” -Albert Einstein. Words that never rang to be so truer before. I can’t change anything about my life that’s negative, if I don’t ...
It's still surreal to me.
This IS happening. And this IS real. Everything is flashing before my eyes. Like a movie. A movie with a tragic ending. I'm playing myself. As I watch it on playback, I really see everything for...
It all began...
And ended in Oklahoma. Fuck this state. Seriously. I want out. Especially if the plan has changed. This dissolution of marriage is really taking it's toll on me. My ego hurts. I'm angry. I'm hu...
Marriage = Misery
I'm full of rage today. I can feel it boiling deep, down there. I want to be divorced and move pass this already. I know it's going to drag itself out. I know I'll have to listen to Steve playing...
