lately, I’ve been feeling lost I’m currently in college and I was lucky enough to receive a scholarship but I don’t want to go to school anymore I know if I tell my family they’ll be disappointed. Since my family wants me to finish school. I don’t work and that in itself is the issue. my mom is a single mom she works 12 hours for 5 days a week just to make ends and even then she doesn’t make enough money to feed my siblings and I. the point here is that I receive 500 dollars from my taxes for when I worked for a bit, all that money is gone because not only do I feel like I need to buy things for my boyfriend so he doesn’t leave me but I also have a 1,500 debt from my credit card turns out my mom needed that money for the rent. Most of you guys are probably asking yourself why don’t just ask for government help but here’s the other issue I don’t have social security no I didn’t come here illegally I am here legally but I don’t have social so I just can’t get help from the government I just can’t get any job I need to do a lot of research before I even accept a offered. at this point I feel so lost, I feel like giving up. I currently considering working at my school but I don’t even know if I’ll be able to work at school. if it turns out I can’t work there I might break up with my boyfriend and start signing up for a sugar daddy website to get money for my family. I really do feel lost and it’s making my mental issues worst. I’m justing writing here to stop my self from doing something stupid. I know a lot people think sex work is dirty but that’s the only way I know I can make money now and I need money now. I really hope everything gets better, I really don’t wanna have sex with strange people but money is money. I really hope everything gets better because I don’t know if I can keep going. my boyfriend is a sweet guy but he doesn’t even bother trying to understand the position that I am in its really frustrating. I wish I had someone to talk to, about everything and anything.