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Inevitable
The memory thing doesn’t bother me because that has just how its always been. I only know mine seems to work differently because of the way I hear other people reference things chronologically in...
Imagining and remembering
The hardest part about putting myself in his shoes is that I couldn’t imagine treating you in a way to end up in the same situation. My day is full of you. Imagining touches, kisses, fucking, and...
4.0.
Another weekend of marathon driving is over. I tried to think if there was anything profound that comes with hitting the 40 milestone and I have nothing. I could also just be exhausted. I’m also ...
Irrational
Irrational looks like impulsiveness in me. A loss of that careful filter between thought and action, especially when it comes to my mouth. You know the crazy shit that comes out of my mouth when ...
Traveling circles of hell
Extended car rides with family has to be one of Dante’s circles in hell. My hope was to listen to our playlist, possibly listen to some new fitting music for the playlist, and knock out an audiob...
Answers
What a sigh of relief it is to hear from you. Multiple channels alleviated a lot of my concern. I’m afraid in my haste I wasn’t clear in choosing my words. You have never broken my heart. But you...
Smoke signals
I appreciate the smoke signal. When I saw it I thought, “God, I love this woman’s mind.” Simple thing but helpful. I really was in a bit of panic yesterday so that was helpful. The more dysregula...
Panic
I panicked today. A bit of a crisis after we talked. Maybe a lot of a crisis. I’m probably still in crisis. The idea of not talking to you daily terrifies me. Not knowing how you are doing racks ...
That was hard
I don’t know a good way to communicate with you, and although a temporary situation, this perhaps will serve as a long form of communication even if one sided in an innocuous open forum in the in...
