Things i will not say to you K.
Things i should have said.
If i would have been more open and direct about my needs.

Writing it down here so it wont be bottled up in my head.

I should have read the signs, listened to you when you said you couldnt give me the intimacy that i meedeed in the way i needed it. Should have expressed my needs instead of bending over backwards in trying to please you, just to get the illusion that we can get a sort of relationship.

A relationship that i cant give you, not 7 days a week not 24hours a day. But you do deserve that.

My life, my situation does not have room for that.