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Updates on Various *SMV
*Slightly Manic Version State of My Heart: Grieving continues, but something strange has happened. My heart somehow feels some kind of relief - already! I’m worried a little bit that I m...
A Slightly Better Day
Today was a better day, a little. SP was my first thought this morning and that made me cry a little and I had a few bouts during the day, but it was also a very busy day and that helped. Not l...
A New Week
Not sure what I’m going to do today to keep these obsessive thoughts out of my head. The weekend was insane, and I mean that fairly literally. I didn’t do myself any favors yesterday. I’ve sig...
Low Point
Wrote this to someone earlier today: "How is it possible that I'm feeling worse than ever today than last weekend about this breakup? I've deleted each and every way to check on his whereabouts ...
Past Meets Present
Something’s been bothering me lately (duh), and I can’t let it go. SexyPants and I met on an online dating site. I don’t believe that online dating sites are bad at all (even though my last tw...
Not Loving a Redhead.
Day….what? I don’t remember. And I know I shouldn’t count anyway. Still having a very hard time concentrating. I miss him like a death, only he’s not dead. What am I going to do this weeken...
Weekend Recap
Ahhh, Sunday afternoon. It's chilly and kind of cloudy, but still I needed some fresh air so I packed up my computer and walked over to the park. Here I sit, surrounded by families and couples an...
Spring - Day 1
Started writing this yesterday, but holds true today. Every day feels a little bit better: Today feels like a much better day than yesterday already. Woke up and did my workout (like every day...
Tuesday Bluesday Bluh.
Disclaimer: This is a rant, intended just to get it O.U.T. I’m making it public just to put it out there (for some reason it feels better when it’s not private…yet it’s still kinda anonymous). ...
Monday Morning Quarterbacking
Monday after our big trade show out of town last week. The good thing about being at a trade show all week is that I didn’t have a lot of time to think/worry/cry about SexyPants. Now that my li...
Article on Getting Dumped.
Older article, but it was a meaningful read for me tonight: Get Dumped? Good. Now Pull Yourself Together! http://www.oprah.com/relationships/Get-Dumped-Good-Now-Pull-Yourself-Together
Seven Days and Fifteen Hours
A week's gone by since my breakup. I am now vacillating between sorrow, malaise, and relief (though relief is way down there at the bottom). I had a whole bunch of things running through my bra...
Nail in the Coffin
Well. Look who's peeking back in. I'm sure you knew I'd be back when the shit finally hit the fan, right? Well, it did, but it was a slow shit into a slow fan and it's finally over between Sex...
Yesterday
Great Things About Yesterday: Talked to Marci in the AM before work. Asked her if she'd heard anything about the new position at old job. Good heart to heart. Dinner with Open Kimono last nig...
Huh?
Up 2lbs since re-starting my diet and daily exercise routine. Clothes fitting ok, but I want better. Food - eating good fruits and veggies (but I have mixed in some processed frozen stuff...co...
I don't know what to write today. I'd rather go click around on Pinterest. I'm stressed out about work. Why is every day such a fire drill? That's what I hate about that job - there's alway...
How to Move the Needle?
Regarding yesterday's parking garage issue and my fear of those elevators, I didn't take the elevator yesterday because I could tell one of them was broken and the other was taking too long. Sta...
No Love on an Elevaror
Brrrrrr! Cold front blew through overnight. I don't live in one of the Bitter Cold states, but it's super cold for us pussies here and I'm not looking forward to getting in that parking garage ...
Random and Various
Good January 3rd! The New Year has started out fairly uneventful, and I think that's a good, good thing. It might get a bit more interesting this weekend when Barbi comes to town. As the name ...
2014
I'm giving myself the gift of 15 extra minutes in the morning to write an entry - not at the office, but at home. I don't know yet if this will work, as it cuts into my sleep/workout/get-ready-f...
Of Course.
Of course, I did hear from SP - finally. Late Saturday night. This was after I'd met with my parents on Saturday morning to make plans for our little baby Thanksgiving instead of going to SP's ...
Day Four
No word from SP. I'm not even sad. Just very, very disappointed. He'd throw it all away because we have continuing issues that are based on HIS actions. I get it...he wanted me to forget the ...
No Contact
Day 3 of no contact from SexyPants. This is serious and stupid. I'm not contacting him, no way. It's not that I'm playing a game - it's that he basically broke up with me via phone call on his...
Thursday Blursday
Finally got some sleep last night. Left the office at 4 and was in bed by 6. Slept until 9ish and again at around 11:30ish - slept until 4:45 this morning, so that's progress on the jetlag. I ...
Almost Perfect
I'm back from my China trip and boy are my arms tired! Yeah. My arms, legs, bootie, brain and mostly my soul. Jet lag sucks - really hard. I need to preface this entry. I am not in my righ...
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