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My Bad Thoughts

by secretlifeoflamp

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I’m not suicidal, there’s a ton I look forward to. I’m not depressed, no, or maybe I am, the seasonal kind, that comes and goes in waves. But that is not what this post is about. I’ve lately c...


All the quality time we spend together, feels like a transaction, like you gave me your time, so I need to pay you back with my body, should a relationship feel like this? I want to believe you...


February 08, 2025

Please help?

Becoming more & more unlikable. When I think about who I was as a kid, I don’t like that kid. That kid was annoying, talked way too much, embarrered herself, and overshared. The teenager me...


I cut myself today and I’m old enough to understand why self harm is bad - alright? Relax, I didnt do much, my cat scratches me deeper than that. I don’t know why I did it, I really don’t underst...


April 14, 2024

The Ugly Version of me

So, I won’t lie I was a sweeter, kinder version of myself a few years back, staying up all night to help a friend do her assignments after finishing mine, being available to anyone at any given t...


April 09, 2024

Today had me wondering...

Am I just an unlikable person?


March 12, 2024

Selfish

So it seems everyone else in this world is allowed to be selfish, the moment I am, I’m the bad person. This is what happens when you keep doing things people didn’t ask you to, when you keep sacr...


February 12, 2024

To Wait or to Seek

I never chose my people, I always let them choose me. I have always waited around and looked pathetic until someone decided to approach me, adopt me, adore me, accept me, and discover me. It’s no...


September 19, 2023

This is a petty revenge post

okay, so I will be honest I don’t really have a lot to say. I am here only to pretend that I have a lot to work on - so that I can annoy certain someone in the room. I hope this person gets real...


November 26, 2022

A Selfish Confession

I despise your selfishness. And I despise how happy you are leeching off people while you only take and take. They probably forgot about people like you when they said “Be You.” , nobody should ...


Book Description

‘You are so nice!’ No, No one is. And if they are, well, I am not one of them.
But what I am is a coward, who does not want to own up to their negativity. So here I am, sharing the rotten side of my mind and hoping one day some one finds me.