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28/1/23
22:54 Really tired from cold. I really feel like tomorrow is gonna be bad. It’s not like always, when I go pessimistic but I actually believe I can do it well, I now really believe it’s gonna go ...
27/1/23
22:46 Ok so I’m a go faster on write NG and I’m a try and talk less about this ngs that happen n more because bout thoughts I didn’t write yesterday coz I’m hell tired. Idk if it’s cold or maybe ...
25/1/23
23:23 Sme problems as always. We read a diary entry on English class (sad that English class is actually influencing me lmao) and I noticed I don’t talk bout my thought enough, just situation. I ...
24/1/23
22:36 I’m so tired it ain’t normal. There’s no way I do gym now, the floor is also pretty dirty. I’m a just stretch n shi, I really don’t feel like doing competitions. Everyday I feel the same en...
23/1/23
23:22 Ok so fast again Seeing B and S really hurts everyday, I do crave at least a best friend’s. They are so comfortable near eachother. Everyday I feel more like I’m alone and can only trust my...
22/1/23
23:50Im kinda tired and I wanna sleep so I’ll be fast. I met the 3s today, Matro came too. Of course, it’s not the same as before, and we have changed and see each other less, but I’m optimistic ...
21/1/23
23:40 Nothing all day, I trained in the morning but kinda slow. Only important thoughts of today: The bad people debate. Do bad people really exist? For example, I don’t like Isis at all and I ...
20/1/23
p0:39 So, ofc I didn’t talk like that to B at all, I almost didn’t even see him. Father was taking me away on car and he had gone there w 3 more friends. I felt tired the whole day and I’m still ...
19/1/23
23:25 Just some reflections n shi. No. 6 playing. S, B, N and some people in class said I looked tired. Father asked me if I was tired too. I looked at the mirror and I do look demarcated. So, bo...
18/1/23
p0:01 Im tired, sleepy and I’ve been down the whole week. Things that happened today: I was a NPC again. I found out this. On lunch break, everyone was talking bout why they’d be dressing like fo...
17/1/23
p0:17 I had a miny crisis over going to that party. I thought I’d not be going but I’m a pay it so I pressure myself. Honestly, I think I might go and if I can I’d try to drink a bit too but I do...
16/1/23
p0:15 Bit tired, specially mentally from the lotta homework. Days do pass by really fast, but time is not flying so hard. It felt like ages since we started 2nd term, but it’s only been one week...
15/1/23
23:49 Kinda ok but ate a lot, listening to slap to get over the down day and have energy coz imma do gym now (I’ve only done 4 days this week). I haven’t thought to much bout B. Also nothing real...
14/1/23
23:09 Not listening to anything, had a huge down day, chrono crisis when I remember B has become a year older and it’s literally been 3/4 years since 2019. Forgot to say yesterday, I saw B playin...
13/1/23
23:52 Ok so let’s start. Right now I have a huge headache, my legs hurt and I’m down listening to no. 6 So first thing that happened, on class, Alex kinda dropped sum. We were going into 2nd peri...
12/1/23
22:42 At this point this is just therapeutic. So fast for today. I felt very jealous bout B and S friendship n friendships in general. I wish I had anybody, I feel pretty alone. Paco congratulate...
11/1/23
22:51 Everything hurts, only a few things happened today. I was asking B how was he gonna go to gr on Saturday, he said that he was going w his brother and some more people he really doesn’t know...
10/1/23
22:57 Nothing again. I’m still scared bout what I’m a gift B. I also remembered we have math at gr this Saturday. I’m phys destroyed (2x3x1000) but Imma do gym and stretching n shit. Imma buy clo...
9/1/23
23:19 Not much to say, listenling random kinda tired. I’m a do gym, stretching and tai chi but I’m tired. What do I gotta say, i prolly gon be doing lotta internet tests with the tech people sinc...
8/1/23
23:30 Not much today, literally same day as yesterday, maybe a bit more productive. Father wasn’t home for the whole day, but the fact that he could either be sleeping (his room was dark and I co...
7/1/23
p0:02 Nothing productive today, wanted to finish all homework but still got a report for tomorrow. I hate the fact that if I wanted to study anything else like typology or magic or whatever, I’d ...
6/1/23
p0:47 Literally did nothing, just played, did some homework but gotta do a lot tomorrow and Sunday and went out w the group. It was fun but nothing out of the usual. The taxi was as usual too, th...
5/1/23
p0:37 Okay so just gotta say normal day n everything. I gotta do a lotta homework and I don’t wanna but I literally go back to class in like 4 days. I stopped with father’s chance, it made no sen...
4/1/23
23:22 Just wanna talk bout father and the competition 25:55 HELL YEAH. I suffered a lot and there’s still a lot of pressure on me to keep being the head of the group. I’m afraid I’ll have to keep...
3/1/23
p0:00 Kinda OK, just a few things. Kinda scared for tomorrow’s 5k, like I feel prepared n everything but they expect me to do something g crazy like 26 and there’s no way. I have a hard time...
Book Description
I have been feeling really bad lately and one of my concerns was having everything I think about written so I don’t forget everything. This is personal but public since it’s anonimous. I don’t care if anyone reads this but I will not be giving many explanations of who I am. This is for my future reading.
