I have been so frustrated lately. I want to be back in my own space. My own bed, my own shower. I love my family but it is has been difficult staying with them this summer after a year away at college. To move home for the summer I packed up a storage bin with work clothes, gym clothes, some tee shirts and shorts to sleep in, and a couple swimsuits. Its really important to me to be able to have days to myself, on my own agenda. I feel like everyday this summer I was either at work or doing things with or for my family that didn’t fit into the agenda I had thought of for each off day but became the agenda out of feeling guilty and selfish for wanting to do my own thing. This Friday I get to move back into my apartment and I am excited. I cannot wait to reorganize my closet and reclaim my space and energy. I am mad at home, I get angry over the little things. People who are not meant for my agenda stress me out. I told this lady I would babysit her kids this week, Monday and Wednesday. On Monday I watched them and the kids are absolutely obnoxious. The mom seems cool but she is also obnoxious. She makes me angry. She originally asked me to watch the kids Monday and Wednesday 11:30-4:30. Immediately after I responded to her message saying that yes i could do that, she fucking texts and asks for 11:00-5:00 instead. If that’s the time you fucking wanted why didn’t you start with that. Also when I got to her apartment complex that she lives at I texted asking for the building and unit number, instead of telling me the building and unit number she sends a PARAGRAPH of “take a sharp left and then immediate right go straight take a roundabout blah blah blah.” If i wanted directions, i would have asked for directions. I asked for building and unit number. fuck this bitch. And now she just texted asking me to come tomorrow (Wednesday) 10:30-4:30 instead of the original agreed upon time. I will never babysit for this family again or any family for that matter. Why is everyone so inconsistent and flakey. everyone.