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I truly wish I was bearing good news. Things went south this year I don’t know what’s going on anymore. Unfortunately, me and my boyfriend split up. I’d have to say he broke up with me to be hon...

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I have been manic for over a week now, but it has helped me regain my confidence and feel like myself again, so I’m not complaining. I haven’t been able to sleep properly in a long time unfortun...

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I have obviously struggled with my mental health. If you’ve read this far, you know that to be almost more than true. Well, I found out recently that I was misdiagnosed with Bipolar 2 and actual...

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*TW: drug abuse, addiction * I hate to admit, but I miss abusing pills. So much. I was the happiest I’d ever been and I crave that feeling badly. It’s such a strong urge unfortunately; especial...

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There’s been some good things coming our way as of late (being Patrick and me). We’ve gotten a new place coming soon; we sign the lease this Saturday and move on the 15th. It’s pretty exciting, ...

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I often find I take years to write back, to fully take a step back and look at my life. I have forgotten you again, my old friend. I have gone through many trials since I’ve last written; none w...

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Nobody realizes how hard it is to live with C-PTSD (except those who have it or something similar) until it happens to them. I’d read about PTSD in books & heard about it in TV shows and from...

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A lot has changed since I last spoke with you all. I met a lovely man named Patrick, whose name I refuse to alter or leave out because he is and always will be a major part of my life. In Octobe...

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Y’know, I’m gonna try to clean my life up a little bit. I don’t want to be the girl with all the problems and trauma anymore. I experienced a lot of pain in the months of October, Nov., and Dec. ...

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I didn’t even realize people were reading these and responding. Thank you for taking the time. Ironically, I’ve logged on in exactly a month since posting my last entry. And equally as ironic, I’...

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“Kill them with kindness.” God, I hate that saying. And, “Treat others how you want to be treated.” It’s all complete and utter bullshit. My entire life, I’ve put everyone before myself, always w...

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When I think about how I left home and everyone I know to go to a new city and start my life afresh, I did not intend on past problems to reoccur with different people. At least not so soon. Deep...

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Everyone always tells me, “You are in control of your destiny.” Or “You are in charge of your own happiness.” If I could control the way that my mind worked, that’d be f**king great. If I could s...

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It’s hard to have a whole beautiful future planned out, and then torn from your grip before you can even fully taste it. It’s especially hard to let that future go, like it never would’ve existed...

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It’s been getting bad again. I told myself that a new, fresh start would be all that I needed to get better. Essentially, however, all I managed to accomplish was to run away from the past, to ru...

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