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Do you ever go to bed at night and wish that you wouldn't wake up the next morning? I do almost every night. On one hand, it's a scary thought, especially when you are a mother, and the only...

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I guess this explains why I have been progressively getting worse... : (

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I think it's kind of funny how, every time I cry, 4 out of my 5 cats run for the hills. The fifth one, Smokie, will curl up against me and purr as loudly as he can, but even he can only handle ...

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...sometimes we take what we can get, and are just thankful that we have that - I lost my dreams long ago anyways. So yes, please. The anticipation is killing me tho'... and I have a stipulati...

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I used to play the piano, but it's been over 15 years since I touched one. I wasn't great, and I hated reading music, but I liked listening to a song and then picking the keys out for myself. ...

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Why is it that I only hear from you at random times when I don't ask, but when I do want to hear from you, I get nothing but silence? Is it because things have to be your idea and when you choo...

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I was reading an article about determining whether or not to stay in a relationship. The full article is here, but what it comes down to is this part at the end and the ultimate test question, ...

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The silence is deafening...

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This is how I feel right now, like I'm waiting for someone who doesn't really exist to come and save me... and yet I'm still waiting... enter link description here DAUGHTRY - "Waiting For Super...

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(So many things in this article strike a major chord in me...) Jackson Bliss explains why love is beautiful precisely because it’s irrational. ♦◊♦ I met L...

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My mom and I had a meeting with Kara's teachers and the school counselor today. I'll go into more later, but the most disturbing part is that she is showing signs of self-harming, and she's ver...

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My daughter is 12 years old. The last time she saw her sperm donor was around her 2nd birthday. Thankfully he and I never got married, and I left him when she was 11 months old because he wa...

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If one has already made some effort to get this far, I have to wonder if they are willing to do just a little bit more... How did you...???

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I feel something so right by doing the wrong thing... And I feel something so wrong by doing the right thing... Everything that kills me makes me feel alive. Everything that drowns me makes m...

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There are so many things I want to say and yet nothing I want to say. Things are shitty in my life. As usual. For one thing, I got really tired of seeing my ex and his stupid GF bragging on F...

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I miss my viking... : ( I feel like the odds of getting him back or finding a knight to help put me back together are about equal. Or maybe both are imaginary creatures nowadays. Which would...

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I wish I knew how that felt... I'm so glad V. Day is here again to remind me of how alone I am.

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I wrote an entry directed at my ex about 2 weeks ago on OD. Normally he checks in on my diary like twice a week, and it's been a mixed blessing to know that he was still there, even if I couldn...

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I may go into full-on freakout mode in a couple of days (Edit - when the clock strikes midnight into Feb. 7th, and OD goes offline permanently), which probably isn't a good thing considering I'v...

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By Ron Edmondson original article here I recently posted “7 Ways a Wife Injures a Husband…Without Even Knowing It“. It’s been a popular post. Thankfully, I’ve not seemed to make a lot of women ...

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By Ron Edmondson original article here I was talking to a man the other day. He’s injured. Not severely. He will survive. Hopefully. The wounds aren’t deep. Right now. But, he is injured. It’s...

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I feel like a part of me is being taken away with the final ending of OD, but probably not for the same reason that a lot of my fellow ODers have. It was my last tenuous connection to my ex, s...

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So, it's the new year... yay. Actually, I'm just glad that 2013 is over, since it sucked. A lot. I was supposed to go out last night, but I was sick as a dog, and still am. Nice day off I go...

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Today is the winter solstice. Unfortunately, it reminds me of one thing, and one thing only, which makes it a not-so-great day for me. And it's raining and gloomy outside on top of it - how ap...

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