Title pretty much sums up my life right now. I’m a female, Asian, 25 yro. It’s been almost 2 years since I had graduated but still can’t find a full time job I prefer. I had been preparing for the entrance exam to be a government official (which is extremely competitive in my country) but the situation in my family wasn’t really helping. I was born in a shtty household with abusive father and mentally unstable mother and sht turned to worst just before pandemic. I was stuck in a tiny apartment with my family, during the pandemic for an entire year. I couldn’t really move out as part time jobs wouldn’t be enough for me to survive on my own and my father would get really mad every time I brought it up. He kept coercing me into getting married and I tried to move out multiple times but my mother held me back and kept emotionally blackmailing me, saying that he would never allow it, he would drag me back and throw her out on the streets. I feared my safety and stayed home. Wasted two years of my life and now I can’t get a full time job. It feels like I was in coma and now I’m barely living. I’ve always been a topper and people used to be easily charmed by having conversations with me. Now I’ve lost my confidence and can’t get a decent job. Only jobs I can manage right now are the ones which do not guarantee pensions and would work me to the bones for peanuts. Never imagined my life would turn out like this but guess it was expected. I am severely depressed and don’t know where my life is turning into.