New to this concept of online diary or posting online about my feelings or how my day was!
Even Though man has reached on moon , Mars or what not - but still here we are -using keypad and an online portal to ponder our true feelings. Connect is missing somewhere- everyone is so self-indulged that no one gives a crap about what you are going through. Some people might even listen to your pain but your pain can be their gossip diet. They might be using it to fill their empty conversations with their friends. Trust is lost somewhere-lost in translation from simple get together to online events.
Being anonymous gives me power to write all my feelings without thinking what one might think about me. Now, this forces me to wonder why the hell do we care so much that what others think of us? Who train us to be always in good judgement of others? Are they some God powered beings whose judgement define us? So why to worry this much? Or this is our own reflection we see in society? Maybe I judge people after listening some sort of stuff and then start believing that others might judge me in same way!
I know I have written hundred words but haven’t written anything about my life -what is happening - but does it really matter if I share that? Seeking Validations from strangers by putting my side of story.. For every incidence in someones life , there are as many versions of stories as many people are involved in it. Whom to believe? Who is right? Everyone and Noone.. We all are mere human beings with limited perception ability of circumstances. We percieve as per our past experiences and our nature..So, its not anyone’s fault if someone believes that they are the victim instead of the other one. So, even if I tell my story here - how can you be sure that I have mentioned all sides and every minute detail of the situation. That story would be my feelings - limited to me. So, what exactly I am searching here ? I want an approval that what I felt What I did was right. By writing story from my lens, I can get it easily.
Somehow, I am feeling better by putting down some of threads of my thought web here in this column. All answers lie within us, it is just we need to focus on hearing them and working on them.